Doubts...

[spikesvampbaby]

 Today has been a really terrible day. 
All day I've been really depressed. 
I think I've lost my reason for being in college. 
Why did I even want to come here again? 
I've lost all hope that I'll ever be successful in college. 
I don't even remember why I chose art. 
I'm starting to hate it. 
Japanese is so hard.
Yes, I keep telling myself it'll be all worth it in the end.. 
I'm starting to run out of hope. 
I hate everything about college. 
The classes. 
Most of the people. 
I love a few of the people. 
I hate the stress. 
The no money aspect. 
I'm running out of my love for art. 
You're not suppose to hate your profession, right? 
Why is it slowly driving me crazy? 
I need motivation.
I need creativity.
I need more talent. 
I want to be happy in college. 
I know I have to stay here to get a decent job and to reach my goals in life. 
I KNOW this. 
This is the only reason why I'm still here. 
I am slowly being driven insane. 
I feel like my strength is slowly being drained away. 
I feel like my life force is being drained with it. 
I don't feel like myself. 
I feel like I've lost the part of myself that can be funny. 
I feel too serious. 
I want to be a kid again. 
I want to act like a complete immature idiot. 
I just want to be ME. 
I know you change and evolve, but I hate how I am right now..
I want to be happy-go-lucky.
I was a lot more fun. 
I need to get out of this serious mood. 
I need to stop typing 'I's'

Thanks for listening to my rant..