follow up..
Im actually surprised but the number of replies to my last entry of people, saying how the understood what i felt, and that the feel the same way and im amazed at the number of people who say, sorry for not being there face..
Why say sorry, because you werent there.. i mean if you really wanted to be you would, yea im messed up the moment, yea my lifes a bit fucked up, but im still here for the ones who need me, the ones i care about.. there are alot of people i care about on here, and i wish them nothing but the best in their life.. but over the past few months, ive realised that barly of you are there for me.. Im only good enough for people when, they really need me?..
Sit and think all of you.. how many of you, have been around when ive needed you? How many of you have decided that unless you need help, cheerup or whatever, that you dont borther with you.. i can say in my view 90% of you, say you give a shit.. but i dont believe you.. why cause when i need someone to talk to.. whos around.. not you.. someone always has an excuse to get away from me...
But no means do i blame anyone of you.. i wouldnt wanna care about me.. i sound so fucked lately, that maybe you will all realise that if you got to know me, this lj is my way of venting.. and really im a nice enough person.. and i can be just as happy as the next person.. but seeing everyone just gives up on me, maybes its someone better all the time, maybe its just me.. but sit down and think, how it felt when someone gave up on, you and how it felt.. so why do it back right..
We all do it dont we.. do thing to other we dont want done to us.. we cant help it, its part of human nature to be mean, its part of human to see the worst in alot of people...
In two weeks when i leave.. will little access to the net.. i dont expect you to care.. or anyone to miss me.. and be borthered, maybe cause i dont want alot of you to.. cause i dont want you to waste your time with me.. no being me.. but im kinda fed up with caring so much about people on, here its a no win suituation i put myself into.. im asking to be hurt.. but regards of that.. i will miss alot of people on here.. and i wish to stay in contact with you.. but i know to do that id have to make the effort.. its put out there.. if you wanna stay in contact with me overseas.. let me know.. maybe we can work something else... but if sit there and think, im to much to handle, or just its to hard to be friends with me.. let me know.. id loved to hear what you think.. i like to see what makes you tick.. andi love to find out who really cares.. excuses are excuses nothing should stop you from helping out someone you care about.. but lets face it.. sometimes people are only wanted in certain periods.. i deal with it, i always have.. i'll go around being me..if its not good enough.. well that aint my prob
Why say sorry, because you werent there.. i mean if you really wanted to be you would, yea im messed up the moment, yea my lifes a bit fucked up, but im still here for the ones who need me, the ones i care about.. there are alot of people i care about on here, and i wish them nothing but the best in their life.. but over the past few months, ive realised that barly of you are there for me.. Im only good enough for people when, they really need me?..
Sit and think all of you.. how many of you, have been around when ive needed you? How many of you have decided that unless you need help, cheerup or whatever, that you dont borther with you.. i can say in my view 90% of you, say you give a shit.. but i dont believe you.. why cause when i need someone to talk to.. whos around.. not you.. someone always has an excuse to get away from me...
But no means do i blame anyone of you.. i wouldnt wanna care about me.. i sound so fucked lately, that maybe you will all realise that if you got to know me, this lj is my way of venting.. and really im a nice enough person.. and i can be just as happy as the next person.. but seeing everyone just gives up on me, maybes its someone better all the time, maybe its just me.. but sit down and think, how it felt when someone gave up on, you and how it felt.. so why do it back right..
We all do it dont we.. do thing to other we dont want done to us.. we cant help it, its part of human nature to be mean, its part of human to see the worst in alot of people...
In two weeks when i leave.. will little access to the net.. i dont expect you to care.. or anyone to miss me.. and be borthered, maybe cause i dont want alot of you to.. cause i dont want you to waste your time with me.. no being me.. but im kinda fed up with caring so much about people on, here its a no win suituation i put myself into.. im asking to be hurt.. but regards of that.. i will miss alot of people on here.. and i wish to stay in contact with you.. but i know to do that id have to make the effort.. its put out there.. if you wanna stay in contact with me overseas.. let me know.. maybe we can work something else... but if sit there and think, im to much to handle, or just its to hard to be friends with me.. let me know.. id loved to hear what you think.. i like to see what makes you tick.. andi love to find out who really cares.. excuses are excuses nothing should stop you from helping out someone you care about.. but lets face it.. sometimes people are only wanted in certain periods.. i deal with it, i always have.. i'll go around being me..if its not good enough.. well that aint my prob