help me...

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So i have feelings for her.. she doesnt have feeling for me.. anymore.. what am i meant to do.. there is nothing i want more.. then for her to love me again.. i know i fell for someone i maybe shouldnt have...but i wouldnt change it for the world.. i sit and wonder how can i feel this way, and for it to just wrong.. there aint much happiness in my life.. but she was one of them.. and i wish and i hope that there is something i can do to fix it.. i want you love me.. i want you to want me again.. but i feel these feelings cold be a prob.. i would soon as rather hurt myself.. then hurt HER.. i couldnt, i just couldnt.. I wish this person would see how much she meant to me..

Tell me is i possible.. to hope that someone you care so much about.. will feel the same way as you..

Is it me..?.. am i just that worthless?..

Tell me not.. tell me things will pick up.. i want to her you say that.. but i know i wont..

Forgive me for the way i feel.. for the problems i cause.. i fell inlove with you.. because of the way you made me feel.. i dont want to lose that feeling.. i love you i do.. and i know ive such a prob lately.. and i was there was something i could do to make things better, to make you happy once again...

I need to go away.. i need to think.. I FUCKEN HATE THIS.. AND I FEEL LIKE HATING EVERYONE ELSE WHILE IM AT IT..

I WANT TO BE GOOD ENOUGH.. I WISH I WAS.. im not.. the end.. you fail again Simon..
*lowers head*...

i leave soon to Canada.. please everything get better.. i neeed to do something right.. and i need for something to work...