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Went to babe's graduation party today, I had a good time.
Babe was drunk,it was so cute.
However, I'm crying now.
I've realized now that after my babe leaves, I have no one.
There were no friends at the gradation...because we have no friends.
I know babe dosen't mind much, but I do.
Someone couldn't even show up, shows how much you care. (and i'm not talking those that are to far away to have come.)
Seems like no one makes much of an effort anyways though.
Is it me?
Am I a sucky person?
Just seems like the last few years, I have been left behind.
Seems like its been so long since i've had a friend,
I don't know how to anymore.
Jen is helping and i'm thankful for that,
I have friends at work too :/
and I know I will make more friends eventually.
This stage is just tough.
I think I will head to bed and cuddle with hannibal, maybe read a book I read in 4th grade and really liked..just to see what it is like now.
Maybe save it for when babe comes over, since we both read it when we were young.
Nicole if it seemed like I rushed on the phone, like I answered your question quick and said bye..sorry. I knew you were on a cell phone and for some reason at that instant I thought cell phones=urgency and quick expensive calls.
So, that's why I made it quick.
I could of at least asked how you were doing.
I tried a caffeine pill today, didn't do anything for me, except make me shakey.
Had a feeling it might not do anything, since I never have a effect from soda or anything else with caffeine.
I will try it once again some other day though.
This summer, i'm going to work a few days a week at the school.
I didn't want to at all, but my boss needs me, and pay else where is worse.
Also, it's a good way to keep connections open for next fall,
which he already asked me about working.
So, I think i'm pretty much settled on a job until I leave here to my next school.
Then, i'm sure with my experience, I can get another janitor job elsewhere.
I only wanted part time this summer,
last summer, it seemed like all I did was work.
And I would really like to get making more stuff, and get an ebay store going good.
I wish my stuff would come in the mail soon. :(
Congratulations again babe.
Babe was drunk,it was so cute.
However, I'm crying now.
I've realized now that after my babe leaves, I have no one.
There were no friends at the gradation...because we have no friends.
I know babe dosen't mind much, but I do.
Someone couldn't even show up, shows how much you care. (and i'm not talking those that are to far away to have come.)
Seems like no one makes much of an effort anyways though.
Is it me?
Am I a sucky person?
Just seems like the last few years, I have been left behind.
Seems like its been so long since i've had a friend,
I don't know how to anymore.
Jen is helping and i'm thankful for that,
I have friends at work too :/
and I know I will make more friends eventually.
This stage is just tough.
I think I will head to bed and cuddle with hannibal, maybe read a book I read in 4th grade and really liked..just to see what it is like now.
Maybe save it for when babe comes over, since we both read it when we were young.
Nicole if it seemed like I rushed on the phone, like I answered your question quick and said bye..sorry. I knew you were on a cell phone and for some reason at that instant I thought cell phones=urgency and quick expensive calls.
So, that's why I made it quick.
I could of at least asked how you were doing.
I tried a caffeine pill today, didn't do anything for me, except make me shakey.
Had a feeling it might not do anything, since I never have a effect from soda or anything else with caffeine.
I will try it once again some other day though.
This summer, i'm going to work a few days a week at the school.
I didn't want to at all, but my boss needs me, and pay else where is worse.
Also, it's a good way to keep connections open for next fall,
which he already asked me about working.
So, I think i'm pretty much settled on a job until I leave here to my next school.
Then, i'm sure with my experience, I can get another janitor job elsewhere.
I only wanted part time this summer,
last summer, it seemed like all I did was work.
And I would really like to get making more stuff, and get an ebay store going good.
I wish my stuff would come in the mail soon. :(
Congratulations again babe.