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Sometimes I really hate this time of year, it's just so damn cold. It's like a cherry on top of a ice cream representing my existence covered with a dark fudge of discontent. *sigh*
I have not been as bored in my entire life as I have been over the past month. Still no job... No one is calling me back, and the people I go pester after application tell me to go away (more or less). On another note, my phone is busted... and so is my spare... I have no idea why... I do get to upgrade sometime this month tho, so I'll have a phone again soon. Our neighbors no longer have wireless internet too, so I'm sitting here at krystals eating an early breakfast of 8 cheese krystals, yum. I've got more stuff to take now as well! Dr. Brown has got me on ambien now. I like it, but I see it as something I could get addicted to very quickly if i'm not careful. I sleep so damn good when I take it, like better than I think I ever have.
On a related kind of a positive note; I've been awake during the regular hours of life for the past 2 weeks (ambien). Thus giving me time to run around to places I've put in applications and put in more at other places. I'll tell you tho, the day time totally sucks. I'm so frickin bored! I think the bordem has been slowly adding to my over all frame of mind... lately without certain variables I've been pretty depressed. I really think I just need something to occupy my time during my waking hours. Maybe it's a sign that I need to be back in school full time? (i hope not)...
.Hack/Sign
A Stray Child
if you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
don't be in doubt and stray
cling to your lonesome folly
now you're too close to the pain
let all the rain go further
come back and kiss me in vain
mother oh do not bother
hear the chorus of pain
taking you back to proper ways
it's so easy to find
if you could remind me
now you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
so I will find you again
kiss you for lonesome folly
Till Next Session
Strive For What You Can't Have
I have not been as bored in my entire life as I have been over the past month. Still no job... No one is calling me back, and the people I go pester after application tell me to go away (more or less). On another note, my phone is busted... and so is my spare... I have no idea why... I do get to upgrade sometime this month tho, so I'll have a phone again soon. Our neighbors no longer have wireless internet too, so I'm sitting here at krystals eating an early breakfast of 8 cheese krystals, yum. I've got more stuff to take now as well! Dr. Brown has got me on ambien now. I like it, but I see it as something I could get addicted to very quickly if i'm not careful. I sleep so damn good when I take it, like better than I think I ever have.
On a related kind of a positive note; I've been awake during the regular hours of life for the past 2 weeks (ambien). Thus giving me time to run around to places I've put in applications and put in more at other places. I'll tell you tho, the day time totally sucks. I'm so frickin bored! I think the bordem has been slowly adding to my over all frame of mind... lately without certain variables I've been pretty depressed. I really think I just need something to occupy my time during my waking hours. Maybe it's a sign that I need to be back in school full time? (i hope not)...
.Hack/Sign
A Stray Child
if you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
don't be in doubt and stray
cling to your lonesome folly
now you're too close to the pain
let all the rain go further
come back and kiss me in vain
mother oh do not bother
hear the chorus of pain
taking you back to proper ways
it's so easy to find
if you could remind me
now you are lost in your way
deep in an awesome story
so I will find you again
kiss you for lonesome folly
Till Next Session
Strive For What You Can't Have