What to do...
I gave up a lucrative (though very stressful) day job to become a fulltime artisan fifteen years ago.
Now my art has become unsatisfying drudge work. My love of craft has become hateful resentment. The film biz has damaged my mental health in ways I didn't think were possible.
I just want to pay the bills and not hate life. It seems that too much to ask of the universe nowadays.