Choices.
Those of you that have known me for any length of time will know that, probably more than I realise, I've stated that the best advice I've ever been given is "you ALWAYS have a choice". It may not necessarily be a nice or sensible choice, but a choice still remains. So, given that line of thinking: Am I *choosing* not to get better? Or at least not to do the things I can that would help or improve my recovery, or at least the current situation?