Hello 2009
hello everybodaye, a very happy new year to all of you :)
alright. my past week's been pretty much packed. which will be recounted privately. thankyou
have only gotten this time to sit down and really reflect my past year.
well. i must say. year 2008 was a good year for me, overall.
1) the beginning of 2008 saw me nursing a broken heart.
such a memory holds a vague and minute significance to me right now
and i met a special person along the way too. it wasn't a love at first sight sorta thing.
but more of how this person really proved that he isn't who people used to rumour about.
perspectives changed. he taught me a whole lot. along the way.
he renewed my faith. he won my trust. he became my pillar of support.
the one who'd be there when im happy and when im sad.
the one who'd listen patiently to me ramble, complain, rant.
the one who'd encourage me whenever i lose heart along the way.
the one who held on tightly to me when i faded.
the one who showers me with the best things, saves the best for me.
the one who showed me what a relationship is all abt.
no doubt, it's all abt commitment, mutual trust and faith.
it was a gag for a person like me at first. i guess i wasn't all too sure abt stable relationships.
ohwell. just shoot. i was a real cynical ass. haha i even envisioned myself to be alone all my life,
which i embrace it happily. and that got some friends worried. hahaha
i guess they can sigh a breath of relief when he came along.
thankyou jan. thankyou love. for everything.
i may whine. i may complain.
but i love him all the same :)
2) working in singtel after A's
which allowed me to meet fabulous colleagues whom i still keep in contact.
especially zen. she's really a wonderful friend who really makes my day.
3) receiving A level results.
it was okay i guess.
4) getting into my desired course in NUS.
lovely.
5) attending different orientation camps at NUS.
meeting a few good mates.
well. for me, i don't pretty much like large quantity but superficial contacts. cos that makes me really uncomfortable.
which explains the small entourage i have in university.
especially sam. we talk abt everything.
boo. the bitching and gossiping never fails to crack me up. karma always getting low. hahaha
6) pageant. making some good mates from there too.
especially partner renny, yongshen and calv.
7) semester started. shit started. got sian of studying along the way.
friends got worried. but i decided to get my ass back on track.
expectations of results are really subjective, my grades are okay.
but what made me more motivated to score better next sem was my dad's "woah. that's good. keep it up."
baby being prouda me. despite me being lazy at times. haha
8) holidays.
i've accomplished quite a lot during this hols.
meeting up with loved ones. spending quality time with jan.
9) my countdown was good. happy.
10) i've learnt that im not born to please the whole world.
if they judge me based on what i bitch about. then sorry, i can't help but shrug
im not a goddess anyway
you get the drift.
wouldn't wanna belabour the point, anymore.
im not ignorant. walls have ears. or some men have mouths the size of china.
i may not be pleasing to the eye to some people. especially the currents of my past.
who are probably the worst critics. but i realised that it doesn't matter.
becos my past doesn't matter. neither will those currents matter a single bit.
my past (quoted from wanlin) is an erased part of the memory drive. i don't remember much anyway.
becos i have my family, quality friends and jan. who accept me for who i am. even when im at my lowest.
they are the best support i can ever have.
well. number ten is just to reiterate how thankful i am to have my darling people with me.
thankyou. bless me with a smooth year ahead in 2009 too.
:)