so yea
idk wat to write bout really i dont have ne problems currently other than my long lasting ones lol. wat can i say school starts again tm its a new 9 weeks got to work hard through out the rest the semesteri thought i was but guess no slacking.i went back to church yesturday by far one of the best things ive done yet since ive been here. i realized how much i really missed it im going to get involved again. for the longest time i havent been that religous i prayed every now and then and i still had my beleifs but its different when your involved in the church. i remember when i used to go to church all the time wed and sundays life seemed alot better then and i think it might be wat i need to help me get on my feet again. i definitly would say ive had problems sence i moved back but its like ne move it juss seems as many times i do it the harder it gets. but i think going back to church will really help me it did before. so yea i apoligised to chelsea she didnt apoligise to me and it kinda pisses me off that she doesnt think i deserve one but shes right id be throwing away three years of freindship all over some stupid apology i wanted. its like i was reading old emails and one my freinds one time said nething worth fighting for once or twice is worth fighting for 500 times or as many times as it takes. i think once i get a gf itll strengthen my relationship with her cus right now i think im having a hard time seeing her as a freind which is stupid cuz weve been freinds for a long time now but i guess part of me juss doesnt want that so im looking into other posibilities. i dont i really like a few girls i like erika but dont know if she really likes me or not and i like hannah and then i juss met the other hannah that ive been talking on the phone with who i met through joey and she seems kool and then somtimes i wonder if i should juss go out of the box to someone i dont even know. sometimes i juss want to talk to jess and see if she wants to go out some time and take a chance even tho i hardly know her. idk the girl situations confusing mabey i should take a pole lol. idk im thinkin i need to decided soon tho cuz im afraid some girls are going to get pissed bout the dating thing saying im leading em on or somthing i dont know i was brought up thinkin you didnt necisarily have to bein a relationship to have fun. but i think ive had enough fun and need to start thinkin bout what i really want to do cuz i cant juss girl hop. haha that sounds funny. oh well thats enough for one night. ttys