a nice little message dont you think?

[spiffylamb]

ha well today, the biggest game of the season, was cancelled due to vehement rain conditions.
nice.
I really wanted to play.
awesome.
now I have to do homework and clean my room.

anyways, there were a lot of things I have been thinking about latley. wait. stop. I always am thinking about something.
I realized who i appreciate, and who I love.
I also realized who has hurt me, and that I have an automatic shut off that erases anything good that came out of what became bad and agonizing.
I can't say that I've been devastated, that would be selfish of me.
But I will say that If people think, that not knowing what they want, is an excuse to hurt someone's feelings, then that is lame.
Am I mad? Yes, Do i hate you? No.
But, I can't help but go through "out of mind and out of sight", a tendency I have as i build my wall up higher and stronger.

I thought I could trust, but in the end, I had to pull myself out I guess.

Good thing there are people like Logan, who I think is very cool. She gets me and I get her.......sometimes. LOL.
And even though I have no said other names, thats okay, because I love you too.

I've met someone really awesome, and so, on that note...I am happy with now, and over with then.