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[spiffychick1212]

hmm so yea kinda feelin crappy right now. the last week has been both fun and depresing. my sister went home yesterday having her home for the week was cool i love being around her i cant wait to go to college with her! the weekend shows went well saterday was kinda upseting and we wont descuss why.the last couple of days ive felt....... nausious. i think its because ive been getting so upset the last couple of days things have been happening and have been making me feel like crap. my self esteem has droped like 10 points no kidding! i really just cant wait till the summer and college.i just want to get out of here and start anew. it seems like ive messed up here and i just want to get out! im tierd of everything and tierd of people! im tierd of myself somtimes but i cant really help that. soooooo newho saterday night went to emily's and that was fun lol we watched little shop and laughed at everything and made fun of people. i had to leave early to get to my show on time which kinda sucks but o well it happens ...we are going to hang out again anyways. so today i feel sick dont really want to deal with anyone theres very few people at the moment that dont piss me of or just annoye my to death. trynig to get things planed out with beth for the summer. shes calling summerset today to try and get us a lot. hopefuly we can get one. havent saved enough money to pay for it yet lol hopefully heather can come too and then it will be less money for all of us to pay. so far ive saved 32 $ and thats good considering i do nt have a job. if heather comes ill only need to save 12 more bucks if she doesnt then i have to save 34 and i dont know if i can do that lol but i will try cuz right now im really looking forward to going this summer. we are having tryouts for mids summer soon.... idk if im going to do the show ........i think i might only if i get a lead. i ust dont think i can handle dealing with the crap again ..... welps Later dayz
Sin-D

i feel like crap,..... and it sucks