fuck the bullshit
I'm getting pretty tired of always being everyone's second best.
I'm really tired of not winning at all these tests.
For some stupid reason I keep thinking... That I'll eventually be someone's number one.
but then i don't know how much fun...
that would be.
I guess It's all up to me.
I don't write poetry... so I'm not even really going to try.
everytime i think of this ... makes me want to cry.
Omk.
I need a vacation from me. My mind is a fucking tangle because i don't know that if what i'm doing right now is what i should be doing. I really am looking forward to being out of this country in a year to study abroad... but then again... that's more money that I really don't have and can't afford. So there goes that idea. I'm never going to do anything that I want to do because life is cruel and because people are mean. Hopefully it does work out this year and i DO get some money... but at the rate i'm going now... it really, really, really doesn't look like that's going to happen. quiet honestly. these muscle spasms really need to stop ... and anytime soon would be awesome...
I'm really tired of not winning at all these tests.
For some stupid reason I keep thinking... That I'll eventually be someone's number one.
but then i don't know how much fun...
that would be.
I guess It's all up to me.
I don't write poetry... so I'm not even really going to try.
everytime i think of this ... makes me want to cry.
Omk.
I need a vacation from me. My mind is a fucking tangle because i don't know that if what i'm doing right now is what i should be doing. I really am looking forward to being out of this country in a year to study abroad... but then again... that's more money that I really don't have and can't afford. So there goes that idea. I'm never going to do anything that I want to do because life is cruel and because people are mean. Hopefully it does work out this year and i DO get some money... but at the rate i'm going now... it really, really, really doesn't look like that's going to happen. quiet honestly. these muscle spasms really need to stop ... and anytime soon would be awesome...