i miss.
I miss abigail. my sister. the one I talk to at night, the one who kinda knows everything about me. I miss our late night to-wee-hours-in-the morning-talks (like 4am) about our dreams and what nots. never expected it to feel so weird without her around. you know the kind of feeling when you get reminded of somtehing you've talked about, and you turn around to tell her, or you pick up your phone and realise. it's not that easy anymore. it's not the same. and I was just talking to sarah and realised that when she gets back, she won't be around cause she's gonna start on her paramedics thing. :( it's just weird you know.
plus, maxine and wilona aren't around. they're in prague! and they just flew off but I miss them already. haven't seen wilona in like what 2 weeks? and it's gonna be 3 and then 4. :( depressing shitzle. I miss moscow just for the times that I got to spend it with maxine,wilona and ruoning. and chances are, we're never gonna be able to row together again as a k4. WHICH SUCKS DAMN BAD.
next up, coach. i'm damn thankful I got into the team when he came in. cause he's like the best coach ever, and im not saying it just cause, but cause he really is. if you knew the amount of sacrifices he's had to make since coming to coach us, you'd cry. if you knew the amount of sacrifices he might have to make, you'd cry even harder. and yet, he's treated like *bleagh*. don't even get me started. it's amazing how much he actually gives up for us. and there's nothing we can do for him but train hard and not let him down. BUT. we do. we let him down in so many ways and it's just plain depressing. and I hope we don't, but we do. and im sorry.
and horror of all horror, there's studies. the bane of my existence. need I say more?
plus, maxine and wilona aren't around. they're in prague! and they just flew off but I miss them already. haven't seen wilona in like what 2 weeks? and it's gonna be 3 and then 4. :( depressing shitzle. I miss moscow just for the times that I got to spend it with maxine,wilona and ruoning. and chances are, we're never gonna be able to row together again as a k4. WHICH SUCKS DAMN BAD.
next up, coach. i'm damn thankful I got into the team when he came in. cause he's like the best coach ever, and im not saying it just cause, but cause he really is. if you knew the amount of sacrifices he's had to make since coming to coach us, you'd cry. if you knew the amount of sacrifices he might have to make, you'd cry even harder. and yet, he's treated like *bleagh*. don't even get me started. it's amazing how much he actually gives up for us. and there's nothing we can do for him but train hard and not let him down. BUT. we do. we let him down in so many ways and it's just plain depressing. and I hope we don't, but we do. and im sorry.
and horror of all horror, there's studies. the bane of my existence. need I say more?