wha??????
Whatever happened to those livejournal entries that were interesting? When did people stop putting effort into livejournal and move onto myspace where they put other pointless messages in their blog entries? I know it's probably because all this is getting old, but I want to read things from people that are inspirational or are in the least bit interesting. I feel like I'm spinning in this constant circle that won't ever stop and I'm getting a headache from all this mess. Someone please help or at least comment with some input.
I think maybe if I wrote another darla darling entry people would start reading my stuff again. But this time I guess my target would have to be towards loveme hardx aka ex-boyfriend who tells you he wants to talk, but then ignores me. I suppose all the drama going on in my circle of friends is just getting typical and nobody cares enough to write whats going on, but instead talks shit behind everyone's backs. I love that. I feel like I can't talk to any of my friends because before I know it, everyone will know because I can't trust them to keep it to themselves, what's the point of best friends anymore now? And not only that, I feel like anytime I undress infront of my girlfriends or open my mouth, they'll judge me. They'll secretly think in the back on their minds how much they love it to know I don't have the perfect body. Or how much they're better looking or better fitted than me. Why do I feel like it's some competition that has my self esteem sink lower and lower? I just hide it well. I know people think I'm very arrogant, but I'm just giving you what you want. You want to think I'm full of myself, and by me saying the things I do, I'm proving you right which gives you such pathetic pleasure. I put off a show as if everythings fine or I honestly think I've got it all. But no, it's only to make you think exactly what you want to think about me. I'm sure people don't believe any of this, but that only proves that I'm doing a good job. It's pathetic that I can't even feel comfortable around them anymore.
I think people rely on me too much to start something. I mean, I'm the only brutally honest bitch who would write anything in livejournal to make a point. Besides the fact that I don't care who hates me or what people think, I just want my friends back. I feel extremely distant from all of them because they are too soaked up into who they just fucked, who got topless and wasted at what party or going back and forth between the same or multiple people. And instead of whoever getting offended by this, and making it all about them, why can't they just grow up and realize what all this is causing? Like I've said before, I'm tired of this circle of fuckovers. When will we ever have each other's backs, holding hands through rough times instead of stabbing them with cruelty?
I know now that this will probably start something, but it's gotten to the point where I honestly don't care. I've already been replaced with Kyle with Natalie, what else do I have to lose? Let's start some more drama or sit down at Starbucks and have another pointless conversation that'll just end in shame.
I think maybe if I wrote another darla darling entry people would start reading my stuff again. But this time I guess my target would have to be towards loveme hardx aka ex-boyfriend who tells you he wants to talk, but then ignores me. I suppose all the drama going on in my circle of friends is just getting typical and nobody cares enough to write whats going on, but instead talks shit behind everyone's backs. I love that. I feel like I can't talk to any of my friends because before I know it, everyone will know because I can't trust them to keep it to themselves, what's the point of best friends anymore now? And not only that, I feel like anytime I undress infront of my girlfriends or open my mouth, they'll judge me. They'll secretly think in the back on their minds how much they love it to know I don't have the perfect body. Or how much they're better looking or better fitted than me. Why do I feel like it's some competition that has my self esteem sink lower and lower? I just hide it well. I know people think I'm very arrogant, but I'm just giving you what you want. You want to think I'm full of myself, and by me saying the things I do, I'm proving you right which gives you such pathetic pleasure. I put off a show as if everythings fine or I honestly think I've got it all. But no, it's only to make you think exactly what you want to think about me. I'm sure people don't believe any of this, but that only proves that I'm doing a good job. It's pathetic that I can't even feel comfortable around them anymore.
I think people rely on me too much to start something. I mean, I'm the only brutally honest bitch who would write anything in livejournal to make a point. Besides the fact that I don't care who hates me or what people think, I just want my friends back. I feel extremely distant from all of them because they are too soaked up into who they just fucked, who got topless and wasted at what party or going back and forth between the same or multiple people. And instead of whoever getting offended by this, and making it all about them, why can't they just grow up and realize what all this is causing? Like I've said before, I'm tired of this circle of fuckovers. When will we ever have each other's backs, holding hands through rough times instead of stabbing them with cruelty?
I know now that this will probably start something, but it's gotten to the point where I honestly don't care. I've already been replaced with Kyle with Natalie, what else do I have to lose? Let's start some more drama or sit down at Starbucks and have another pointless conversation that'll just end in shame.