(no subject)
erm.. since i havent post in 10 yrs.. and im bored.. i will past a message i sent to a good friend that pretty much sums up my mind set right now.. enjoy!
"yea been very busy as usual.. but now the most time consuming part is my new diet! that works!! i was @ 240 (about) 1 1/2 months ago and guess what! i just weighed myself this morning and i weigh 215!! OMG
:-) but i am also going away to 'drum major" camp at CMU this sunday.. i have an awful feeling its going to be hell.. but im going to try to make the most of it as i often do.. :-) im hoping though with the extra exercise i will get from marching and do meaningless drill during camp.. (practically for 8 hours out of the day) i will get another spike downwards on my weighing scale.. :o)
mmmm-yess my parents notice that im losing weight but i realized that when other people notice something about me, i stop doing whatever they notice.. its probably because im so self consious and dont want to be noticed in that way.. but a couple weeks ago my parents and some friends started saying that i looked thinnner, and i hit a spike up wards again in weight.. and that when i came to realized that it would be better if either i was in a separate state until school started.. or that no one even talked about how i looked until they saw the semi-finished product in september..
its like make a dish of food...a really fancy one.. you cant have people eating off of the nice white plate until you have all of the food stategically placed so that it looks beatiful and finished.. and if they start telling you it looks nice before your finished.. you wonder.. "should i stop then? cause they like it how it looks now.. should i do any more?" but in my mind i just have to keep thinking.. "heh.. yea.. they like it now.. but wait until its completly finished.. it will blow their minds.." "
i hope you enjoyed that!-- comment or e-mail if you ahve any questions.. but like i said im leaving sunday... so call my cell phone nonstop after sunday! :-)
"yea been very busy as usual.. but now the most time consuming part is my new diet! that works!! i was @ 240 (about) 1 1/2 months ago and guess what! i just weighed myself this morning and i weigh 215!! OMG
:-) but i am also going away to 'drum major" camp at CMU this sunday.. i have an awful feeling its going to be hell.. but im going to try to make the most of it as i often do.. :-) im hoping though with the extra exercise i will get from marching and do meaningless drill during camp.. (practically for 8 hours out of the day) i will get another spike downwards on my weighing scale.. :o)
mmmm-yess my parents notice that im losing weight but i realized that when other people notice something about me, i stop doing whatever they notice.. its probably because im so self consious and dont want to be noticed in that way.. but a couple weeks ago my parents and some friends started saying that i looked thinnner, and i hit a spike up wards again in weight.. and that when i came to realized that it would be better if either i was in a separate state until school started.. or that no one even talked about how i looked until they saw the semi-finished product in september..
its like make a dish of food...a really fancy one.. you cant have people eating off of the nice white plate until you have all of the food stategically placed so that it looks beatiful and finished.. and if they start telling you it looks nice before your finished.. you wonder.. "should i stop then? cause they like it how it looks now.. should i do any more?" but in my mind i just have to keep thinking.. "heh.. yea.. they like it now.. but wait until its completly finished.. it will blow their minds.." "
i hope you enjoyed that!-- comment or e-mail if you ahve any questions.. but like i said im leaving sunday... so call my cell phone nonstop after sunday! :-)