my obsession.......lol
so im sittin here, bored outta my mind and i start wondering....what did i ever do to deserve Mike? i mean seriously, i feel like i screw up all the time..but i must have did something super good to get him. its wonderful becuase i know that even if we always arnt like we are now, i can still tell him anything and it will still be ok to put my head on his shoulder and bitch about how life sucks, which is absolutly perfect. i can tell Reva anything, but who can i talk to when im worried about her(which i do alot)i mean, untill a few days ago i told no one everything that i worry about her for, and after a year it really builds up. but i told him, and i was on the verge of crying(somthing i basically never do) and it was totally cool with him. and so i was just like, wow. hes amaaazing. and that is different than just plain amazing, yes it is. i feel so whipped cuz i havnt slept good since i got home, and i know it might sound korny but when you have someone to hold you every night and in the morning you get a little spoiled.no, you get very very very spoiled. i am totally, totally, whipped. this is horriable! i havnt been like this in forever! i love how its not all about making out(or whatever else that we do)but we can actually lay there, just lay there, in total silence for a pretty long time. i am such a cuddle freak, its pathetic.i just love his skin, the way he smells,hearing his heartbeat and listining to his breathing. i know i know, now i sound obsessed but its all true. maybe i am, i dunno. sometimes, he just looks so fucking good it hurts. and once again i think what did i do to deserve him.honestly, i dont think ill ever know....but it must have been somthing good.