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Lately I think I've been a little better, aside from being kind of edgy and anxious all the time. But I've stopped crying as much.
I've been trying to keep myself busy, not that that would ever make me forget Jake. He's ALWAYS on my mind somehow. But it helps to numb the pain.
Yesterday I got 2 job applications at a few restaraunts for a waitressing job. I have to finish filling them out. One of the places is called Mr.E's Tavern. I walked in to this dark smokey bar, with tables and the actual restaraunt in the back. It looks like a place lonely bachelors hang out in. I came outside smelling like an ashtray, that's how bad it smelled. I'm hoping I must have accidently walked into the smoking section. The other place I applied to wasn't bad, a bar and grill, it was called Harry's. Either way, I hope I get a job.
Yesterday my acting class started up again. It went ok. My acting teacher was glad to see me. "Emily! You came back!" Of course I did. A few of the girls seemed a little snobby. But ya know what? I can't afford to worry about them, I'm trying to learn and improve and get the right skills for acting, and a few of them didn't seem that serious about it anyway. I've also been researching acting schools in Philadelphia. I came across a good one in New York, it's mainly a school for film acting. Also one in England, which looks possible, but no one would ever let me go all the way to England, as much as I would love to.
Also, this weekend there may be a secret rendezvous...me and Jake. He's going to be at this thing on Sunday, and the parents aren't going to be there, just a bunch of other people our age, and he told Colleen to bring me. So...there is hope! I might see him! If only for a few mintutes....just to see that beautiful face again...
Ooh! It all feels so dangerous and passionate! hah. I hope no one finds out...
I've been trying to keep myself busy, not that that would ever make me forget Jake. He's ALWAYS on my mind somehow. But it helps to numb the pain.
Yesterday I got 2 job applications at a few restaraunts for a waitressing job. I have to finish filling them out. One of the places is called Mr.E's Tavern. I walked in to this dark smokey bar, with tables and the actual restaraunt in the back. It looks like a place lonely bachelors hang out in. I came outside smelling like an ashtray, that's how bad it smelled. I'm hoping I must have accidently walked into the smoking section. The other place I applied to wasn't bad, a bar and grill, it was called Harry's. Either way, I hope I get a job.
Yesterday my acting class started up again. It went ok. My acting teacher was glad to see me. "Emily! You came back!" Of course I did. A few of the girls seemed a little snobby. But ya know what? I can't afford to worry about them, I'm trying to learn and improve and get the right skills for acting, and a few of them didn't seem that serious about it anyway. I've also been researching acting schools in Philadelphia. I came across a good one in New York, it's mainly a school for film acting. Also one in England, which looks possible, but no one would ever let me go all the way to England, as much as I would love to.
Also, this weekend there may be a secret rendezvous...me and Jake. He's going to be at this thing on Sunday, and the parents aren't going to be there, just a bunch of other people our age, and he told Colleen to bring me. So...there is hope! I might see him! If only for a few mintutes....just to see that beautiful face again...
Ooh! It all feels so dangerous and passionate! hah. I hope no one finds out...