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gotta write something but i dont know what to really write. spent the weekend with jon. it was nice, it got me out of the house and away from the things that i need to forget. strange how a house can hold so many memories but the ones most remembered are the bad ones never really the good ones the ones that should really count and hide all that bad ones. if only these walls could talk. god they wuld have quite a story to tell as to how messed up my family really is and so on. i only hope that once the rents get out of here and leve me in charge of it that ill be able to fill it with happy memories of me and my soon to be family. job search thing isnt going good. no one wants to hire me now that im so close to havin the baby. only like 6 more weeks to go. i can only hoe that once i have this kid and start school ill be able to find a job and hopefully it will have decent pay. one can wish right? but then again if all one does is wish then not take action on the wish their lives become nothing. well i best be going need to take care of things around the house here.