random blah blah blah...
i want to be more healthy, but i'm not good at it. my hormones are an easy excuse. and they have been making me terribly off balance for the last couple of day. i almost fell at work yesterday and i fell today and slammed my knees into the hardwood stairs. if the awesome bruises i'm expecting come to fruition i'll post some pics.
i am painfully self-aware sometimes. i know what my baggage is. i know what my issues are. i know where most of them manifested from. and none of that does me any good, because the warning label i have slapped on myself seems to be ignored by people until they find the truth annoying and find me to be disposable. i've been lonely a lot, and i am thankful for the people that have been around int he last week or so...there is a certain sadness that lingers, but it is mostly easy to ignore when i am with others...and if i could just convince my heart to stop wanting i would be so much happier...
i am painfully self-aware sometimes. i know what my baggage is. i know what my issues are. i know where most of them manifested from. and none of that does me any good, because the warning label i have slapped on myself seems to be ignored by people until they find the truth annoying and find me to be disposable. i've been lonely a lot, and i am thankful for the people that have been around int he last week or so...there is a certain sadness that lingers, but it is mostly easy to ignore when i am with others...and if i could just convince my heart to stop wanting i would be so much happier...