Downswing alert
I can *feel* myself fighting off a downswing. It's like.. I've heard that some people get auras or something before they get migraines or epileptic attacks? I've been told "well, maybe if you don't *focus* on it so much you won't downswing, maybe it's a self-fulfilling prophecy." Which is bullshit. I can't not try to fight it off, it's like drowning, it's an automatic response. And when it starts, I can't stop it. Nothing can stop it. I don't want this to happen, but at least this way I know it's coming and I have time to say to people, look, I might not be around for a few days.
If it's longer than that, and you know my number, start calling and/or texting me every day. I might not be able to answer email or even phone calls, but for some reason I'm "allowed" to txt. Don't ask for logic.
But anyway, right now I can't concentrate much on anything. I'm going to have to default on WIAD, which is making me feel even worse, but there's no way I can write.
I'll get through it. I always get through it, one day at a time. You guys are a big part of that. Seriously.
If it's longer than that, and you know my number, start calling and/or texting me every day. I might not be able to answer email or even phone calls, but for some reason I'm "allowed" to txt. Don't ask for logic.
But anyway, right now I can't concentrate much on anything. I'm going to have to default on WIAD, which is making me feel even worse, but there's no way I can write.
I'll get through it. I always get through it, one day at a time. You guys are a big part of that. Seriously.