The story of a life cut too short.
I compiled this from Tibor's LJ.
If you don't know who Tibor is, then you don't know me.
Sept 12, 2004
now you can read my mother fucking entries about drugs/love/drugs. love/hate/tragedy. hahazerz fuck, how lame. im so fucking highper i could run to another city. FUCK. hey how can i help you, whats your fix? i got it all, whatever you need, talk to me at school about it. love: i have so much love in my fucking heart for smoking. smoking and listening to music, not fucking hard music asshole, just smooth tunes to keep me rolling.
Sept 13th, 2004
why the fuck am i writing in my jive journal. ok so its 9:24 and i just took a hit of meth so im really blazed and shit. so im lifting weights and then this jock makes me fun of me with his friends about lifting the weight the wrong way. they laughed at me for about 30 seconds. after that happened and we all hit the lockers and he slapped his teammate's ass i asked him if i could suck his dick. he was in front of his teammates who's ass he had slapped earlier so he obviously couldnt say yes because that would be gay. i also mentioned to my dads wife about hunter for some reason and she was like "cunter?" that was pretty much the funniest thing that happened today besides when i got made fun of for lifting weights the wrong way. drugs: im so high off meth that i can't even see.
Sept 15th, 2004
ok im not in the higher crazy mood that ive been when ive been writing my other 2 long entries. im just chill, and the sky is dark so im lazy. drugs: ive been hittin up cigars, i actually sold a cigar for a dollar and a cig for a dollar today, im such a good businessman. i almost made a dollar tracing reid's map too. i was gonna make 2 but alex fucking was like "ill do it for one" so it ruined my offer to reid. love: so like ive been saying some mean shit but this time its gonna be nice because im in a better mood. im going to go to the firehouse at 5 and do some community service.
Sept 16th, 2004
i got 9'11 on my mile run time.
im so fucking wasted i tried heroin for the first time today, thats why im exhausted. jesus christ its crazy. love: i dont even know if im gonna go to blood brothers show tommorow. oh yeah maybe but i want to go home so badly. my drugs are there.
im gonna call hillary really soon. im gonna hit mark up for cash tommroow. god i fucking hate schoolwork. math test tommorow.
eat me out.
Sept 20th, 2004
so i went home today and then i did homework. oh yeah arabian nightmare *my band shit* is on the radio in portland so that was cool to hear about. i just wrote an awsome song so ask me to show you, its fuckin tight. everything on my mind is totally uninteresting. i gotta get more interesting shit on my mind. school just ruins it because i have absolutely no interest in fucking how puritans came to america to be assholes and purify their cocks. spanish is the more interesting class because im learning something, a fucking language, and the feeling of learning a language is good. pretty good. pretty god damn good. haha. yeah this shit isnt interesting so why dont i talk about cool shit. so my mom, remember her, she was a maid for william teller. if you dont know who that is then look it up. dude school ruined my fun. so i went to a house at lunch and i saw a whipcream can so i put it in my mouth and squeezed the shit out of it and then i ate some fucking vanilla almond crunch shit, it was an orgasm because i previously ate the best fucking sandwich/roll from the safeway deli. today was also payday. today was fucking payday 13.fucking50. im gonna blow it so fast on happy shit. anyone want me to drum in their fucking bands? im stoned.
Sept 22nd, 2004
a man's got to live, and live he will. its only a test and a posterboard and the shitty process of pretending to be sickkk. im determined, im gonna fucking do it. lets see what is the coolest thing about today. oh yeah, some christian kid sat by me at the guitar shop and started playing jesus chords so i made a really christian guitar solo so he started talking to me. and he tried to get me to jam on some songs and i played really fucking bad. haahah it was so awsome. im a spectacular person.
Sept 27th, 2004
this last weekend was fucking awsome because i did a lot of crazy shit. and i hung out with my sister and we shot up. drink up, shoot in. so fuck it was amazing. i am in a cool state of mind where im stressed the fuck out about schoolwork but other than that im good. exept for the fact that i began disliking bitches in these projects. but i started diggin' some bitches in these projects as well, so you know waht that means bitches. im free. whats upppppp? i just want to dance. there was fucking good dancers at the show on saturday and it inspired me. guess who's fucking lame birthday is going to be october 4th and celebrated next weekend.
October 3rd, 2004
so a mother fucker couldnt get a ride to tha show tonight meaning he stayed home but got 100dollerz and the priveledge of obtaining 12+ alchoholic beverages and in the last minute smuggled fix into himself.
October 6th, 2004
*question*
do you think smoking with crest white strips in my mouth will ruin the whitening effect?
November 21st, 2004
im sick but its ok because i cleaned out my dads medicine cabinet.
and oh, is he fucked up from that medicine. their gone now. sorry.
i want my family. i wont sleep tonight.
November 30th, 2004
im starting over and it's for real this time. you dont have to beleive me.
Sept 21st, 2005
i drank some beer tonight because tommorow is late start. yeah im struggling alot in school. mainly just spanish and math. manly math. yeah. god im so stupid for smoking a ciggarette tonight, but i guess its pretty xxhardc:)rexx and i guess im pretty sweet and im gonna get some E soon. whoah mushrooms and E =bad brains and ER. i hear there are some more natural disasters coming. i wouldnt mind being a part of the end of the world. armagedon would be amazing. i would shoot up 6 tons of heroin on the spot.
November 3rd, 2005 [last entry]
i guess a little depression is al that it takes to come back down to the reality of the world and its daily issues. believe or not, i learned this all while i was high. being high made me realize my faults and issues so that i could learn from them. im not saying that its a good idea to get high for that purpose, nor am i saying that it saved me. im just saying its interesting.
i still have no regrets about anything ive done. there is no point in regret. thx for reading
October 4th, 1987 - January 25th, 2006.
If you don't know who Tibor is, then you don't know me.
Sept 12, 2004
now you can read my mother fucking entries about drugs/love/drugs. love/hate/tragedy. hahazerz fuck, how lame. im so fucking highper i could run to another city. FUCK. hey how can i help you, whats your fix? i got it all, whatever you need, talk to me at school about it. love: i have so much love in my fucking heart for smoking. smoking and listening to music, not fucking hard music asshole, just smooth tunes to keep me rolling.
Sept 13th, 2004
why the fuck am i writing in my jive journal. ok so its 9:24 and i just took a hit of meth so im really blazed and shit. so im lifting weights and then this jock makes me fun of me with his friends about lifting the weight the wrong way. they laughed at me for about 30 seconds. after that happened and we all hit the lockers and he slapped his teammate's ass i asked him if i could suck his dick. he was in front of his teammates who's ass he had slapped earlier so he obviously couldnt say yes because that would be gay. i also mentioned to my dads wife about hunter for some reason and she was like "cunter?" that was pretty much the funniest thing that happened today besides when i got made fun of for lifting weights the wrong way. drugs: im so high off meth that i can't even see.
Sept 15th, 2004
ok im not in the higher crazy mood that ive been when ive been writing my other 2 long entries. im just chill, and the sky is dark so im lazy. drugs: ive been hittin up cigars, i actually sold a cigar for a dollar and a cig for a dollar today, im such a good businessman. i almost made a dollar tracing reid's map too. i was gonna make 2 but alex fucking was like "ill do it for one" so it ruined my offer to reid. love: so like ive been saying some mean shit but this time its gonna be nice because im in a better mood. im going to go to the firehouse at 5 and do some community service.
Sept 16th, 2004
i got 9'11 on my mile run time.
im so fucking wasted i tried heroin for the first time today, thats why im exhausted. jesus christ its crazy. love: i dont even know if im gonna go to blood brothers show tommorow. oh yeah maybe but i want to go home so badly. my drugs are there.
im gonna call hillary really soon. im gonna hit mark up for cash tommroow. god i fucking hate schoolwork. math test tommorow.
eat me out.
Sept 20th, 2004
so i went home today and then i did homework. oh yeah arabian nightmare *my band shit* is on the radio in portland so that was cool to hear about. i just wrote an awsome song so ask me to show you, its fuckin tight. everything on my mind is totally uninteresting. i gotta get more interesting shit on my mind. school just ruins it because i have absolutely no interest in fucking how puritans came to america to be assholes and purify their cocks. spanish is the more interesting class because im learning something, a fucking language, and the feeling of learning a language is good. pretty good. pretty god damn good. haha. yeah this shit isnt interesting so why dont i talk about cool shit. so my mom, remember her, she was a maid for william teller. if you dont know who that is then look it up. dude school ruined my fun. so i went to a house at lunch and i saw a whipcream can so i put it in my mouth and squeezed the shit out of it and then i ate some fucking vanilla almond crunch shit, it was an orgasm because i previously ate the best fucking sandwich/roll from the safeway deli. today was also payday. today was fucking payday 13.fucking50. im gonna blow it so fast on happy shit. anyone want me to drum in their fucking bands? im stoned.
Sept 22nd, 2004
a man's got to live, and live he will. its only a test and a posterboard and the shitty process of pretending to be sickkk. im determined, im gonna fucking do it. lets see what is the coolest thing about today. oh yeah, some christian kid sat by me at the guitar shop and started playing jesus chords so i made a really christian guitar solo so he started talking to me. and he tried to get me to jam on some songs and i played really fucking bad. haahah it was so awsome. im a spectacular person.
Sept 27th, 2004
this last weekend was fucking awsome because i did a lot of crazy shit. and i hung out with my sister and we shot up. drink up, shoot in. so fuck it was amazing. i am in a cool state of mind where im stressed the fuck out about schoolwork but other than that im good. exept for the fact that i began disliking bitches in these projects. but i started diggin' some bitches in these projects as well, so you know waht that means bitches. im free. whats upppppp? i just want to dance. there was fucking good dancers at the show on saturday and it inspired me. guess who's fucking lame birthday is going to be october 4th and celebrated next weekend.
October 3rd, 2004
so a mother fucker couldnt get a ride to tha show tonight meaning he stayed home but got 100dollerz and the priveledge of obtaining 12+ alchoholic beverages and in the last minute smuggled fix into himself.
October 6th, 2004
*question*
do you think smoking with crest white strips in my mouth will ruin the whitening effect?
November 21st, 2004
im sick but its ok because i cleaned out my dads medicine cabinet.
and oh, is he fucked up from that medicine. their gone now. sorry.
i want my family. i wont sleep tonight.
November 30th, 2004
im starting over and it's for real this time. you dont have to beleive me.
Sept 21st, 2005
i drank some beer tonight because tommorow is late start. yeah im struggling alot in school. mainly just spanish and math. manly math. yeah. god im so stupid for smoking a ciggarette tonight, but i guess its pretty xxhardc:)rexx and i guess im pretty sweet and im gonna get some E soon. whoah mushrooms and E =bad brains and ER. i hear there are some more natural disasters coming. i wouldnt mind being a part of the end of the world. armagedon would be amazing. i would shoot up 6 tons of heroin on the spot.
November 3rd, 2005 [last entry]
i guess a little depression is al that it takes to come back down to the reality of the world and its daily issues. believe or not, i learned this all while i was high. being high made me realize my faults and issues so that i could learn from them. im not saying that its a good idea to get high for that purpose, nor am i saying that it saved me. im just saying its interesting.
i still have no regrets about anything ive done. there is no point in regret. thx for reading
October 4th, 1987 - January 25th, 2006.