its a long way down.
today was another one of those kind of days. i started to think alot. and we all know when i think alot i feel like shit and i dont know what to do about ANYTHING that is going on around me or anything that has to do with me. becca left school early because she had a fever. during town meeting i let her sleep on me. so, i have been getting sick all night and it sucks major dick. and we got a detention during town meeting thing. uhh yeah parents arent really too happy about that one. anyways i went to mclean to see my psychiatrist today and she is probably one of the coolest people i know.. for her age- she must be my parents age and she already can tell how im feeling and waht i've done just by walking in sitting down and smiling. its pretty sweet. anyways. today i was thinking about all of the people that i used to hang out with. not just over this past year and this past summer but last year too. and like ellyn said shit happens and things change. but i dont feel too great about it. me and laura havent even been talking as much as we used to and now i feel pretty guilty. if i get to school tomorrow im spending seventh period with her. and then hearing a story from piers. but if i dont go to school tomorrow, im gonna get leny or ted to take me just to get my homework and shit- but im gonna say hey to a couple people. so if you end up being sick frm me comin to school for a bit (which you probably wont,) but still. im sorry today i figured out that ben jardot knows everything about me. like before i knew he knew almost everything. but thissss goes way over the top. i love him so fucking much. =D. he always makes my day. todays my dads birthday. shiiiiiit. definately forgot until a couple of minutes ago. yeahhhh. OH. i love sam flinkfelt. i remember him from club pheonix in like SEVENTH GRADE. and i still talk to him. hes the sweetest kid. someones a man. hahahhaha holler. ;-) you know i love you.