the rotten apple that snow white ate
i'm not even snow white.. i'm the fucking apple.. everytime i think about happening i feel like i have a rotting black inside.. how did i let this happen to me. i was so happy last march (see march 2-4 2004 postings for clarification), and now in a year i've shot myself in the foot. i cant shake off this dead feeling. because no matter what happens this can never be changed. this is life now. damn it!