is everyone tryin to drain me?
this weekend it's probably one of the most intense weekends i've had in a long time. i have realized a bunch of shit. i don't understand people i really don't see when my friends need something i will do n e thing i can for them, but it seems when i need someone no one is ther to help me, xpt for al but she's so far so it makes it hard, n e way i'm tryin to be understanding and i'm tryin to be strong for him but sometimes it's just to hard and too much for me i get jelous and i get mad which makes it hard for me to help, i think pot and alcohol should be out of this equation so i am done with that shit. i don't know what im goin to do with my life sometimes i get caught up helping others that i forget about myself, maybe it's cuz i find it easier to help others than to think of how fucked up i really am. i used to think that i knew that everything was gonna b ok but i am not sure n e more. all i wanna do is go back to school i kno i need help but the only people who can really help me aren't talking to me and probably don't want to hear from me, so all and all i am screwed.