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It sucks a LOT wen things don't go the way as planned. I try not 2 get too upset about it, but it's real hard 2 hold it in. Sometimes I wonder if we were ever even friends. It's hard 2 remember the times we laughed together, and told eachother everything. Sometimes I find it even hard to remember what you look like. People always said distance would weaken friendships, but I've always lived 2 prove people wrong, but it's times like these I ask myself, "why do I even bother?"
It feels like I am the only one who would actually give up things just so it could work out, but how come I don't feel you playing your part?
I'm trying to see it in your perspective. Is it cause I'm replaced? Or is it cause it takes too much effort? Or is it cause you've changed and I'm only an annoying prick now that you can't seem to get rid of?
I know I let my disappointment change into anger into bitterness towards you, and I'm sorry that I can't pretend that it doesn't matter to me, and just pretend that it's ok. Too many times has it happened, but yet the pain still has the same degree of effect.
You probably look at me as being overly desperate, but is it my fault that I try to pursue any possible chances to hook up? I guess it never crosses your mind that I still exist, and that I still try to protect the friendship we have..... or had.
Is it my presence that you can't stand anymore? I haven't changed. I'm still that ghetto girl from that ghetto home down in that ghetto place. Nah, it's not me, it's definitely you.
Don't worry, by next week I'll probably be sending you an email anyways. I can never stay mad at you. It's cause you've done too much for me in the past, and I've put too much effort into our friendship that I don't want it to go to waste.
Let's just say that we're both too busy for eachother, too busy to make our friendship last. That our friendship is definitely not our number one priority..... today...... tomorrow...... till whenever you're ready.
It feels like I am the only one who would actually give up things just so it could work out, but how come I don't feel you playing your part?
I'm trying to see it in your perspective. Is it cause I'm replaced? Or is it cause it takes too much effort? Or is it cause you've changed and I'm only an annoying prick now that you can't seem to get rid of?
I know I let my disappointment change into anger into bitterness towards you, and I'm sorry that I can't pretend that it doesn't matter to me, and just pretend that it's ok. Too many times has it happened, but yet the pain still has the same degree of effect.
You probably look at me as being overly desperate, but is it my fault that I try to pursue any possible chances to hook up? I guess it never crosses your mind that I still exist, and that I still try to protect the friendship we have..... or had.
Is it my presence that you can't stand anymore? I haven't changed. I'm still that ghetto girl from that ghetto home down in that ghetto place. Nah, it's not me, it's definitely you.
Don't worry, by next week I'll probably be sending you an email anyways. I can never stay mad at you. It's cause you've done too much for me in the past, and I've put too much effort into our friendship that I don't want it to go to waste.
Let's just say that we're both too busy for eachother, too busy to make our friendship last. That our friendship is definitely not our number one priority..... today...... tomorrow...... till whenever you're ready.