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yeah so i was just thinking... for the new year's i'm gonna get me a job and pay off my debts, then get my shit straight. also, imma just go take my ged test the first chance they'll give me, cuz once i'm done with that my mom will help me get some wheels. what's really bugging me now though is my debts, lack of money, and affection. that's all there is to it really. but i have a feeling that there's just something missing, and it's gonna be that way even after i get a job, car, and even a girl friend. i have a feeling that my life's going to get on track soon for once and i won't be wasting my time and money on trying to be a kid, but focusing on what i could do now to make my life's quality improve in the long run... some deep shit.
i've spent so much time trying to do basically whatever i want, and it blowing up in my face has shown me that my actions and decisions are really going to fuck me up in the future. dropping out of school, wrecking christel's jeep, and getting fired from the wing house (cuz i felt like i could drink there after work) are 3 of the biggest, but not the only things that have revealed to me that i just need to chill out. i'm going to lead a path to a better life and hopefully at some point, i will reach some kind of enlightenment to help soothe this hunger for what i do not know inside of me.
i've spent so much time trying to do basically whatever i want, and it blowing up in my face has shown me that my actions and decisions are really going to fuck me up in the future. dropping out of school, wrecking christel's jeep, and getting fired from the wing house (cuz i felt like i could drink there after work) are 3 of the biggest, but not the only things that have revealed to me that i just need to chill out. i'm going to lead a path to a better life and hopefully at some point, i will reach some kind of enlightenment to help soothe this hunger for what i do not know inside of me.