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heh. today i saw the infamous girl that i see once in a blue moon... but whenever i see her she drives me FUCKING CRAZY! i had the right idea about what would happen. i mean it was nice to see her and all... we went to the ledges and i skated for a little while. but... it was another dissapointment other than that. i donno why i let myself get stressed out about pussy shit but i do. iono. i guess she's gonna come over tomorrow afternoon, but i'm not even sure about that. all in all though i'm proud of myself... i don't hold back on what i feel about shit, and i guess some of the things i told her pissed her off... but i wanna tell her these things because i'd have to if there was going to be anything there between the two of us... you know?
but yeah... i kinda feel like everything i do is a waste of time. i've prolly said this before but i donno... time is slipping away from me and i'm having a hard time catching up. i haven't done too much to better myself except being more straight forward and tact-full... if that's a word. but other than that... i'm just squandering my pay checks, burning my brain cells, and i believe i'm as close to getting something like a girl friend as i ever was... miles away.
iono... people have told me i complain a lot, thanks for putting up with my shit and thanks for reading this pussy shit. i just have to vent because it's hard to talk to vent to people... cuz hardly anyone listens to a word i say.
but yeah... i kinda feel like everything i do is a waste of time. i've prolly said this before but i donno... time is slipping away from me and i'm having a hard time catching up. i haven't done too much to better myself except being more straight forward and tact-full... if that's a word. but other than that... i'm just squandering my pay checks, burning my brain cells, and i believe i'm as close to getting something like a girl friend as i ever was... miles away.
iono... people have told me i complain a lot, thanks for putting up with my shit and thanks for reading this pussy shit. i just have to vent because it's hard to talk to vent to people... cuz hardly anyone listens to a word i say.