I can't believe its almost been a month..
So I've been pretty pre-occupied with life the past couple of weeks and I haven't been home most of the time or at a place with internet so I had no means to post.. But shit I didn't realize it had gone on this long.. If you're eversocurious, I've pretty much been out and about, tryin' to catch up with old friends, I've gotten particularly close with a specific one who I've been having a ball with, and just enjoying life to the fullest.. That's all in between work and school of course which takes up majority of my time.. More so lately with work since my boss has been goin through some stuff and I've been having to cover her alongside the other assistant manager..
At first I was kinda stressed about the whole situation cause my boss, the person who's suppose to be our backbone, basically tried to off her self.. That left me and my other assistant to try and hold down the fort without her.. So I've pretty much been at work a lot more than usual.. Which is cool cuz at least I've been getting fatter checks cuz of it and I can't complain bout that.. But man it really puts into perspective how much another person can affect you.. I just got out of a situation similar to what made my boss want to kill herself and unlike her, I don't have the balls to even ATTEMPT to some shit like that.. But I must admit, I have had thoughts of not wanting to go on but really though, who hasn't?
The weird thing is, I had this crazy dream where I had gotten sick and my parents took me to the doctor where I was diagnosed with a deadly disease.. The doctor said the severe pain and bacteria hadn't set in or spread yet, but once it does it will be extremely excruciating and all my organs will fail.. She also said that since I was a donor, they had to put me to sleep (like a dog) before the disease contaminates my organs.. And at first, I was okay with it.. I said okay I'll do it.. Didn't even cry. I took it like a champ.. As if I was excited to die.. What I didn't know was that they were gonna do it RIGHT THEN and THERE.. When I saw them setting up the needles and all that, I asked, Wait.. We're gonna do this now?! And the doctor said yes, tomorrow would be too late.. And that's when it hit me.. I yelled and screamed and said no please just give me one more day! There are so many things I want to do still before I die.. I just realized I'm not ready.. And soon enough I woke up in a crying pant, yet happy that it was just a dream.. From that day on, it was like I got out of my depressed state I had been stuck in for so long.. And since then, I've been taking in everyday as it comes.. Living it as if it's my last day.. Tryin to fit in as much as I can cuz, u never know when you're gonna go.. Cliche right? But as cliche as it is, more people need to live by it forreal forreal..
Which leads me to remembering someone who unfortunately is no longer with us.. RIP Liss.. It was her birthday on Friday and I just wanted to mention her since she is a huge driving force to my sense of gratitude for life.. She was such a great inspiration and she is greatly missed.. Love u girl..
A lot has happened in the past month.. And as much as I'd love to share pictures of my the happenings that went down recently, I lost my freakin' camera.. But as soon as I find it, I will upload the pictures.. So be on the look at for the following events..
MY birthday (shit i still haven't even posted those up..)
Kay's birthday
San Francisco Torch Protest
Kitties in Emeryville
The Avalon Pre-housewarming party
Invisible Stripes party at Duplex
And a couple more I can't think of right now.. gaaaah. So much things to do, so little time to do it innnn.. Oh well.. That's what keeps me goin tho. =)
At first I was kinda stressed about the whole situation cause my boss, the person who's suppose to be our backbone, basically tried to off her self.. That left me and my other assistant to try and hold down the fort without her.. So I've pretty much been at work a lot more than usual.. Which is cool cuz at least I've been getting fatter checks cuz of it and I can't complain bout that.. But man it really puts into perspective how much another person can affect you.. I just got out of a situation similar to what made my boss want to kill herself and unlike her, I don't have the balls to even ATTEMPT to some shit like that.. But I must admit, I have had thoughts of not wanting to go on but really though, who hasn't?
The weird thing is, I had this crazy dream where I had gotten sick and my parents took me to the doctor where I was diagnosed with a deadly disease.. The doctor said the severe pain and bacteria hadn't set in or spread yet, but once it does it will be extremely excruciating and all my organs will fail.. She also said that since I was a donor, they had to put me to sleep (like a dog) before the disease contaminates my organs.. And at first, I was okay with it.. I said okay I'll do it.. Didn't even cry. I took it like a champ.. As if I was excited to die.. What I didn't know was that they were gonna do it RIGHT THEN and THERE.. When I saw them setting up the needles and all that, I asked, Wait.. We're gonna do this now?! And the doctor said yes, tomorrow would be too late.. And that's when it hit me.. I yelled and screamed and said no please just give me one more day! There are so many things I want to do still before I die.. I just realized I'm not ready.. And soon enough I woke up in a crying pant, yet happy that it was just a dream.. From that day on, it was like I got out of my depressed state I had been stuck in for so long.. And since then, I've been taking in everyday as it comes.. Living it as if it's my last day.. Tryin to fit in as much as I can cuz, u never know when you're gonna go.. Cliche right? But as cliche as it is, more people need to live by it forreal forreal..
Which leads me to remembering someone who unfortunately is no longer with us.. RIP Liss.. It was her birthday on Friday and I just wanted to mention her since she is a huge driving force to my sense of gratitude for life.. She was such a great inspiration and she is greatly missed.. Love u girl..
A lot has happened in the past month.. And as much as I'd love to share pictures of my the happenings that went down recently, I lost my freakin' camera.. But as soon as I find it, I will upload the pictures.. So be on the look at for the following events..
MY birthday (shit i still haven't even posted those up..)
Kay's birthday
San Francisco Torch Protest
Kitties in Emeryville
The Avalon Pre-housewarming party
Invisible Stripes party at Duplex
And a couple more I can't think of right now.. gaaaah. So much things to do, so little time to do it innnn.. Oh well.. That's what keeps me goin tho. =)