i'm just gonna cut and paste this in my journal from now on

[sphinxbunny]

SO...

i get up and shower and sit and wait until the last minute to get in the car and go to work.

i do as little as i feel i can get away with at work.

i come home and either stare at the computer or at the tv.

i avoid doing things i really ought to do.

i think about the past and how old i feel and how much i've lost and the inevitability of suicide.

i stare at the computer and tv some more.

i go to sleep.