so you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts. what's so amazing about really deep thoughts?
lalalala?
Kelly says:
A tick, a tic, an insect.
AGHGHGFDSHSJDJHSFFF
Wait on. My head can’t process these word things. Hardly the thoughts themselves let alone the words. Why words, why clarity, why desire to express, why express desire? What need is there. Why is there a need to express :O?
EXPRESS YOURSELF, TOOT TOOT!
So today I had a lovely walk by the riverside. How do you tell if someone likes you? How do you tell if you like someone?
Since, Cat, you are my only watcher, I am only talking to you. When are we going to catch up?
Today I dressed up, I had a denim miniskirt, with fishnet stockings with lacy tops and a garter belt and suspenders, you could see the suspenders at the bottom of my skirt, and I had a black shirt with a red tube top over it, and my Doc Martens. I felt so fancy. People paid more attention to me. Tomorrow I plan to wear trackies and a fat jumper.
Also, I'm planning on losing weight. I've already started going for more walks and eating less junk and healthier foods. But I 'm still lacking in motivation... I want to lose at least 5 kilos. At the very least.
Damien sings:
Well you held me like a lover
Sweaty hands
And my foot in the appropriate place
And we use cushions to cover
Happy glands
In the mild issue of our disgrace
Our minds pressed and guarded
While our flesh disregarded
The lack of space for the light-hearted
In the boom that beats our drum
Kelly says:
I am frightened, now, of not being able to get out of a relationship. I’m afraid of not wanting to, as well. Feelings are darn complicated, eh?
Elsewhere, I want things to move faster. I hate not knowing, I hate the suspense, I hate being impatient. I think I want something impossible; I want the beauty of music to exist in life. I don’t think it’s an understanding I will ever encounter. Maybe it’s because my heart is not open to it.
One would wonder how the beauty of music could NOT exist in life, because music is written from life. But music is so endlessly beautiful… life doesn’t seem capable of being so.
I do not benefit from my current emotions :P