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ugh.
im confused about life.
im tired of the fighting and arguing.
i don't wanna have to lie to be happy.
and then feeling like an asshole for doing it.
im sick of not being able to do and go as i please, im too much of an independent person.
i feel like im being controlled and its killing who i am, my creativity, my motivation....my will to live.
all i do is work, and drive around, the only thing i look forward to now is eating, and smoking butts.....not so much the eating part.
my body hurts, im tired and i can see myself falling into that same pattern....
i had the strongest urge this morning to hurt myself.
im confused about life.
im tired of the fighting and arguing.
i don't wanna have to lie to be happy.
and then feeling like an asshole for doing it.
im sick of not being able to do and go as i please, im too much of an independent person.
i feel like im being controlled and its killing who i am, my creativity, my motivation....my will to live.
all i do is work, and drive around, the only thing i look forward to now is eating, and smoking butts.....not so much the eating part.
my body hurts, im tired and i can see myself falling into that same pattern....
i had the strongest urge this morning to hurt myself.