dust in the wind

[speshulk13]

just got back from new york. the trip was enjoyable..for the first night. i spent last night at my grandparents. my nana doesnt know who i am and i watched her fight with the person trying to feed her. that was depressing as anything. i dont want to get old..ever. as much as getting married scares me, part of me thinks the sooner the better because then my children will get to spend time with their grandparents. and maybe even great-grandparents.

less than a month til i leave. thats like 25 more days for us to pretend this is normal.. the skeletons are slowly coming out of the closet..because we've packed in a bit too many.