Weird
So the other night I had a really fucked up dream, but it was really cool and I think that is confirms my insanity. For that reason alone I'm not going into detail. The night before that I had a weird dream, it was mostly weird because someone was in it and I haven't seen this person or talked to them in a while. Then tonight she comes into my store while I'm working. It was cool to see her again after so long and I hope she does give me a call to hang out and isn't just leading me on. Just because I really need to start hanging out with people again, and more often. My life has become so schedueled and repetative that as of lately I've felt that I could be replaced by a robot and not even know it myself. Work is getting better overall still. I don't think it will ever be perfect, its just that kind of job that the second you think things will be perfect something breaks, someone quits, etc. I can deal with that I guess because if I'm already insane and ok with that, whats the worst that could happen? Blah Blah Blah I hate writing in this thing because I feel like I just go on and on about nothing. If you listen to the Used's new cd I think you will go crazy as well. I really like it. Oh yeah Fall From Grace won the battle of the bands thing. I was really happy for them. I just hope they stay kick ass or I will be very upset. Also I have decided that sometimes this world disgusts me so much that I just want to blow my head off to not have to deal with it anymore. Of course I woulnd't do that because I respect myself and personally I think that 99% of the time killing yourself is a pussies way out of dealing with life. You know that everyone has bullshit to deal with in life, but its how you survive that makes you who you are (Rise Against). Basically I'm happy with my life I know I'm not perfect and never will be but I still have self-respect and integrity(spelling?) and not a lot of people can say that in my opinion. I guess thats what upsets me so much about the world today, when times were more simple if you didnt have those things you were basically outcast or killed. Today we have people slaughtering others and having no or not enough judgement on them. We have become a world a majority of cheats, backstabbers, and doormats. That is what disgusts me in a simple way I guess. Well if you read this than 50% of you should take no offense, I cant promise the other 50% that I don't feel this way about them. Those are good odds though right 1 out of 2? Maybe I'm just over critical though, Sometimes I feel like I expect too much out of people. This may be true, but isn't expecting more out of people a good thing, like an expectation that the world should be better than this. Doesn't improvement come from people expecting more out of you? Maybe this is all bullshit and I'm completly retarded. Oh well its how I feel so deal with it.