No one can live in the light all the time
First and foremost, one of the rules in this community is to vote on at least three applications before submitting your own. Please list the usernames of the applicants whose applications you have voted on.
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Name: Lisa
Age: 20
Location: Seattle, WA
Are you open to cross-gender votes? Yes, but I'd prefer a female character.
Would you be open to being voted as characters who are not in your age range? Would you prefer to be voted as a character who is within your age range? I'm fine with any age range.
1. What are your three defining positive traits? Explain how you exhibit each trait in everyday life.
Intelligent - I think I'm intelligent in all things, even to a fault; it can keep me from being totally happy when I'm just doing stuff. I'm not particularly "smart" at math, figuring out directions, or particular skills like that, but I have a holistic intelligence; intelligence in different ways, all the ways that count to me. I have a lot of intellectual and emotional depth, and the ability to think differently - an unconventional mind. I'm brutally honest in a lot of things, and can express things beautifully. I'm also pretty literate and have a very literary mind, I love and write and think in literature.
Artistic - I really love and appreciate art and artistic beauty. I have a great aesthetic eye, taste in art, and a very visual mind; I can imagine things very vividly and evocatively, as if they were art. I also have a talent for writing. I'm very creative, and interested in all things artistic.
Sensitive - I'm very subtle in my emotions and can detect nuances in other people's. I think I'm sympathetic and understanding. I can be a very good listener, and give non-cheesy advice. I've been told that I'm "forgiving," but not exactly, because in my view there's nothing to "forgive," I'm just more understanding - yes, they told me all this. I'm pretty emotional, even if I don't always show it, and can be incredibly moved by really fine, subtle, random things, things that probably no one else would respond to that way.
2. What are your three defining negative traits? Explain how you exhibit each trait in everyday life.
Selfish - I'm really pretty self-centered. That's one of my defenses, I guess, because I have such a strong sense of self-integrity. I don't care about others' concerns as much as my own, and I don't always take people's feelings into consideration. Like, I don't even register it when I'm doing certain things, even though I'm aware of it on some level.
Cold - I can be very caring about a lot of things, but some things, even some just common decent things, never even touch me. I can't bring myself to really care about things like 9/11, disasters, and a lot of people dying - especially things I can't really relate to individually. I don't really know how to react when a family member is seriously ill. I don't have a natural caring feeling for those things, I'm even uncaring about people in my life. I'm just very distant from a lot.
Arrogant - I'm pretty egocentric in my point of view sometimes, and the bottom line is I always think I'm right. So I'm very stubborn that way, and maybe not as open and expansive as I'd like. I'm argumentative, and people get frustrated with me because of that. I guess I'm self-important.
3. If you were studying in Spence, which would be your favorite place? (By the lake, garden, church, caves, etc.) Why? By the lake or in the garden, because I like beautiful natural scenery and being in a quiet, peaceful, outdoor place like that. The church is too oppressive, the caves too dark and rough and out-there.
4. Would you have stolen the wine from the church in order to be in Felicity's group? Why or why not? If you weren't part of their crowd, what kind of clique would you be in, if any? Why? No, not in a million years. I really look down on Gemma for that and all the other little things she does. Why would I do something stupid just to gain the acceptance of some group I despise and wouldn't even really want to be with? I don't even like Felicity. I doubt I'd be in any clique, as I'm kind of a loner and wouldn't do anything just to get people's approval.
5. If the Door of Light were to appear in front of you and you were to go into the realms, what would you choose to do in them? What would they be like for you? Like daydreams. I'd just be totally free there, rolling around in the grass or something, happy like a child.
6. Do you think the power of the realms should be shared by the members of the Order? Why or why not? Yes, because that power is too great for one person, who could misuse it. You kind of need a system of checks and balances, even though, if you just shared the power among, say, four people, there'd be a chance of it going wrong, too, or a possibility that one of the others is less good than that one person.
7. If you were a woman living in the Victorian Era, what do you think your life would have been like based on how it is now, your ambitions, and place in society? I'd be a middle-class woman, well-educated but not very "accomplished," as in good at dancing, playing the piano, drawing watercolor miniatures, etc., and kind of eccentric, but not beyond the pale. I'd probably get married, but I'd marry someone I loved, and if I had children, I'd try to raise them loving art and with more important values. I'm sure there are ways to grow up deep and heavy in all times.
8. If you were granted power by the realms and could use it inside and outside of the realms, what would you choose to do with it? Only good. I'd try to help others in little ways, I wouldn't just grant all their wildest wishes, or, like, try to get back at others. If I could save a life I would.
9. What is your favorite scene (A Great and Terrible Beauty and Rebel Angels combined)? Why? I haven't read Rebel Angels yet. I think it must be the scene where Felicity is breaking down and telling the story of the four friends who came together and sinned, because it's so poignant. One of the things I was struck by about the book was how painful it is, how, even though I despise all the girls to some extent, I feel for them because they realistically have all this sadness and shortcoming in their lives. I felt like I could relate to that. It was a really gut-wrenching moment. The book is very modern-angsty, not historical at all in a way.
10. What is your favorite quote from the books? Why? "So life took them, led them, and they went along, you see? They faded before their own eyes, till they were nothing more than living ghosts, haunting each other with what couldn't be. What can't be." It's so sad and broken and haunting.
11. Pick one character among Gemma, Felicity, Ann, and Pippa. Tell us what she (the character you chose) could have done differently. (We are sure you did not agree with their every action.) Felicity - there are so many things she did I hated. One thing I absolutely couldn't stand was when that guy gave her a flower and, seeing Miss Moore, she threw it down. It's one thing to be a bitch, another to be hypocritical. To disguise your own feelings and delude yourself.
12. Which A Great and Terrible Beauty/Rebel Angels older character would you consider as a good role model? Why? Definitely Miss Moore. She's wise, good, understanding, not preachy, sensitive, cultured, intelligent, and interesting. Easily my favorite character as a person.
13. Sort these words in order of appeal to you: beauty - glory - security - power - wealth - self-fulfillment - freedom. Explain your answer.
Self-fulfillment - What can be more important than this? This kind of subsumes a lot of things under it. It's basically true happiness or contentment. This is what I want most, to live content with my life.
Freedom - I feel like my whole life I've kind of been trapped, by outside things and my inhibitions which kind of come from the outside. I want to be totally free, so that I can do whatever what I want.
Beauty - This isn't just shallow. I love beauty in all forms, and physical beauty in people is kind of important to me because, like I said, I have a very aesthetic sense. And I'd like to be beautiful in all ways, I'd like feeling happy with my appearance.
Security - I want to be safe and secure in some ways. It'd be nice not to have to suffer horribly from privation or disaster. To be taken care of and have something to rely on.
Glory - I'd like to be admired and respected for something, I guess. Maybe "glory" isn't the right word, neither is fame, but something like it, that makes you proud.
Wealth - Wealth accords you a certain amount of freedom. And I've realized as I've gotten older that I'm not practical at all and I really just hate going about the mundane things in life like getting a job, earning money, etc., or even thinking about them. I detest it so much that I want wealth, even though I have no greed.
Power - I'm not power-hungry, or ambitious in that way. I don't want to control people, don't want them to do anything, don't want to be able to wield power over anything particularly. I'm already a strong person, that's all I really care about.
14. If possible, please post one or more pictures of yourself here. This is not mandatory, but if you do have pictures, you're encouraged to post them.
