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[spenca_is_kinky]

alright. give it a chance. .. realizing new things and ways of thinking can be good but also sucks. everywhere i go i see people doing their jobs and they do not look happy. and i think,, one of those people is like me, i'm going to be like one of those people. i think that i'm not going to be content even though i haven't given it a chance yet. money has got to be the biggest divider between two completely different paths. risky and safe. the safe being boring and the risky being, well... being risky. and it's not too late to make that decision, it's too bad my mind seems made up when i'm not even ready to think about it. that's how it is with pressure from parents. not even in college yet and i still have time, but i feel like it's too late.

i'm not going to have fun at my job no matter what i do. life is not going to be fun. unless i have that one thing that makes it all worth it. and i hope i get that. i want it so bad.