Why Can't I Feel Anything For Anyone Other Than You
"people our age want answers not vague absurdity.
being confused about life at this point is probably one of the worst feelings out there.
just got to latch on and hope to hell everything works out."
if that doesnt sum up how i feel right now, i dont know what would.
i woke up this morning feeling pretty empty and wondering whether these past few months actually happened. and am left wondering whether my decisions effecting my life now and into the future are good decisions. i feel like im convincing myself that im doing the right thing. why do i have to convince myself? shouldnt it feel right if it is right?
sometimes i feel like im acting my way through all the laughs and smiles and iwanttobewithyous.
i just want back what i had a year and a half ago. i was comfortable and pretty sure of life then. at least in some aspects. the most important anyway.
one thing. one thing is all it takes. my world flipped upside down. ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS THAT ONE THING.
im just really sick of thinking about it. and really sick of thinking. period. honestly my life looking in is pretty good. but if you were inside my brain. oh, if you were inside my brain.
countdown:
5 more days til VA
13 more days for the move