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Fuck. fuck fuck fuck. I am so on the verge of an emotional breakdown and I don't even know why. God, I just want to curl up in a corner and cry.
The renovations on the kitchen aren't going well so my mom is super stressed because she doesn't know what to do and she has to pretty much deal with it all on her own since my dad is just burying his head in the sand about the problem (and he accuses *me*...). I want to do something to help her but I don't know what to do.
I can't deal with this. I just can't. Toooootally having an emotional breakdown right now. And one of the worst things about this is that I can't talk about it when I'm like this. And I really really need to. I just near physically can't.
...and now I'm being all aggressive. I hate it and I can't stop. And do you know what one of the worst things is? I know that all this is totally unreasonable. Some of my friends are going through much worse shit or have in the past. I just can't seem to stop.
...and on top of all that I seem to have hormones (yes I am totally talking about them like they are a disease).
And just to make everything so much more fun and wonderful exam week is next week and I haven't started studying yet. Luckily exam freakage doesn't seem to have hit me yet (at least for the most part). It will though, on top of everything else. Won't that be fun.
Huh. This actually made me feel somewhat better. Won't last but at least for now...
...aaaaand I have a headache. *sigh* This always happens when I'm coming down. At least I didn't actually cry this time (then it would have been *really* bad)
(and I was so happy on my way to school *sigh*)
The renovations on the kitchen aren't going well so my mom is super stressed because she doesn't know what to do and she has to pretty much deal with it all on her own since my dad is just burying his head in the sand about the problem (and he accuses *me*...). I want to do something to help her but I don't know what to do.
I can't deal with this. I just can't. Toooootally having an emotional breakdown right now. And one of the worst things about this is that I can't talk about it when I'm like this. And I really really need to. I just near physically can't.
...and now I'm being all aggressive. I hate it and I can't stop. And do you know what one of the worst things is? I know that all this is totally unreasonable. Some of my friends are going through much worse shit or have in the past. I just can't seem to stop.
...and on top of all that I seem to have hormones (yes I am totally talking about them like they are a disease).
And just to make everything so much more fun and wonderful exam week is next week and I haven't started studying yet. Luckily exam freakage doesn't seem to have hit me yet (at least for the most part). It will though, on top of everything else. Won't that be fun.
Huh. This actually made me feel somewhat better. Won't last but at least for now...
...aaaaand I have a headache. *sigh* This always happens when I'm coming down. At least I didn't actually cry this time (then it would have been *really* bad)
(and I was so happy on my way to school *sigh*)