Dec 19, 2003 15:00
I feel like I'm standing in a wide open space, just myself, a few in the distance. A few that won't go away. But I'm just lost. I don't know where to go from here. At all. And I really do not know what has been wrong with me. When I sit here everyday I just feel so numb sometimes. I have so much inside but all I do is bitch. I am grateful with what I have, I am an optimist; people like me need to bitch. I almost feel wrong for feeling this way, this down, because I like what I have... I just feel so alone sometimes.
Today I read my sonnet and realize that I still really do feel that way. And I don't want it to be that way at all.