Guess who came back to LiveJournal?
Wow, you don't know how much you miss a place until you pay it a visit! I love LiveJournal...it's so much safer and personal than MySpace. Don't get me wrong, I am a total MySpace addict, but this is nice. No wonder Alesha is still hooked on her LiveJournal. It has a lot of memories. I actually found doll_on_stage, my previous LiveJournal, and I'm thinking about switching back to that, only because it has more memories than this one. I created this journal after Dylan and I broke up...and it's not like we're still broken up. However, I got really close to breaking up with him last night. It was just a whole load of upsetness about a comment that one of his friends made, his reaction to it, the fact that we want different things, and so on and so forth. We're okay now. I know I love him and I don't want to lose him. Even when things get tough, he's still the man of my dreams.
I've just been on edge lately...things aren't easy for me. I haven't been myself in forever, and I often feel like I won't ever EVER enjoy life the way it's supposed to be. You know, get married, have a baby, live in a beautiful house with a wonderful man who treats me like a treasure while I take care of him. Gosh...I won't even be able to enjoy that. I'm so sick with OCD I can't really enjoy anything. It's amazing how well I hide my pain.
Okay, enough raw feelings, I need to head home to Orlando to get some paperwork signed, to get some stuff from home, and to get ready for my Cocoa class. I'll probably come back to Palm Bay as soon as I'm done with that. Cocoa is more than half way to Palm Bay...and I want to head in this direction, especially if it's raining tonight after my class. I need to make sure things are okay with Dylan, too.
Love you guys.
Muah!
Ette
I've just been on edge lately...things aren't easy for me. I haven't been myself in forever, and I often feel like I won't ever EVER enjoy life the way it's supposed to be. You know, get married, have a baby, live in a beautiful house with a wonderful man who treats me like a treasure while I take care of him. Gosh...I won't even be able to enjoy that. I'm so sick with OCD I can't really enjoy anything. It's amazing how well I hide my pain.
Okay, enough raw feelings, I need to head home to Orlando to get some paperwork signed, to get some stuff from home, and to get ready for my Cocoa class. I'll probably come back to Palm Bay as soon as I'm done with that. Cocoa is more than half way to Palm Bay...and I want to head in this direction, especially if it's raining tonight after my class. I need to make sure things are okay with Dylan, too.
Love you guys.
Muah!
Ette