becoming a stoner
lunch with teddy during my 30 minute break during work today, and we talked about becoming a "gemstoner." of course he's all for it, and he says it's not that hard. i thought about it long and hard last night, and then the discussion with teddy pretty much finalized it. provided i'm going to maryland, i'm gonna go all in. cause luck/fate/god/whatever-you-want-to-call-it decided to be gracious and that's not something usual ^^. but really, i don't think i'd be ok with letting this opportunity pass by. i don't know why i've been accepted, and i really don't think i deserve it. maybe i'm being overly modest (i doubt it), maybe they were looking for a sara speir or maybe they were tripping on something illegal. but the point is somehow, i'm in. and now i can meet a smart boy i'll take a liking to ^^ jk. sort of. and besides, i can't join gemstone later if i say no initially, but i can always quit. plus this would make my mom incredibly happy, and i owe her something after putting her through all that crap the last 17 years. now she'll have something to brag about.
and yeah, i told my mom my decision, all the while knowing this is gonna wrap yet another chain around me binding me to college park, and more importantly cold cold md. but as i said before, i'm coming to terms with it. and i know i'll make a life and be happy no matter where i go. and i'll really look fwd to being with my class of 2004, or at least the ones who are going to umd. but i can't help but hope that by one more stroke of luck i'll be admitted into emory and i'll find a way to pay for it. but i gotta think realistically with all the factors mixed in this giant pot of decisions...and yeah umd is prob my destination.
moving on, working at b&n has taught me quite a bit. and not just how irate people can get, or how to make a "hammer head," or anything as trite as that. really, it did sort of teach me the value of money. i worked from 2:30-11 today and i'm gonna make less than 50 bux after the crazy government takes my money. so to purchase my cynthai steffe skirt by myself, i'd have to work an excess of 10 hours...for a skirt. and this is another reason i'm gonna do gemstone...i'm hoping it'll help me succeed later in life. and by talking to teddy (who is on the pr committee for gemstone, so you know he's good at selling it) it will help.
oh yeah, and b&n cafe has also taught me how to take shots. of expresso. i'm crashing at jessica's tonight, so that means i'm gonna have NO sleep and i have to get to work tommorow morning at 10 till 7:30. meaning i need some major coffee. which is good, cause where i came from/will go to has plenty of that. so i successfully gulped down a dopio with a little whip cream. it tasted like motor oil. but i am awake still! (usually im passed out by 12:30/1ish)
well the night is still young (i lie i'm exhausted) and i'm off to jess's. and we all know what that implies ^^ no sleep!
sing with me: she's the blade, and you're just paper! you're afraid that she's got closer.
and yeah, i told my mom my decision, all the while knowing this is gonna wrap yet another chain around me binding me to college park, and more importantly cold cold md. but as i said before, i'm coming to terms with it. and i know i'll make a life and be happy no matter where i go. and i'll really look fwd to being with my class of 2004, or at least the ones who are going to umd. but i can't help but hope that by one more stroke of luck i'll be admitted into emory and i'll find a way to pay for it. but i gotta think realistically with all the factors mixed in this giant pot of decisions...and yeah umd is prob my destination.
moving on, working at b&n has taught me quite a bit. and not just how irate people can get, or how to make a "hammer head," or anything as trite as that. really, it did sort of teach me the value of money. i worked from 2:30-11 today and i'm gonna make less than 50 bux after the crazy government takes my money. so to purchase my cynthai steffe skirt by myself, i'd have to work an excess of 10 hours...for a skirt. and this is another reason i'm gonna do gemstone...i'm hoping it'll help me succeed later in life. and by talking to teddy (who is on the pr committee for gemstone, so you know he's good at selling it) it will help.
oh yeah, and b&n cafe has also taught me how to take shots. of expresso. i'm crashing at jessica's tonight, so that means i'm gonna have NO sleep and i have to get to work tommorow morning at 10 till 7:30. meaning i need some major coffee. which is good, cause where i came from/will go to has plenty of that. so i successfully gulped down a dopio with a little whip cream. it tasted like motor oil. but i am awake still! (usually im passed out by 12:30/1ish)
well the night is still young (i lie i'm exhausted) and i'm off to jess's. and we all know what that implies ^^ no sleep!
sing with me: she's the blade, and you're just paper! you're afraid that she's got closer.