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so, one of my new favorite movies is fight club.
i love the ending (although, i kind of wish they were more subtle about it) and just the psychology in the middle of the movie...like why fight club is started, and taking it too far, and just ahhhhhh so good.
i haven't fought (more like wrestled) with anyone in a very long time. however, whenever someone makes fun of me i tend to reply with "don't make me kick your ass" or some other violent response. last night, xander finally agreed to fight me and holy shit. he beat me everytime haha. but i also fought with sam, gerald, and colleen. wonderful way to get aggression out. i did win a couple! we were up until 3:20 in the C4 lounge just fighting and being violent and insane.
i am now sore, tired, injured, and loving every minute of it.
i've been really "stuck" for the past month or so. i don't really know why this is happening now. i was thinking a lot about it earlier today during work (all [two] of the kids were sleeping and i had nothing to do for an hour and a half). i decided i need to figure out who i am again. i already went through this stage, but of course, i've changed since then. but i don't mind because i'm more than ready to make this feeling go away.
after work, i went for a bike ride to Flayvors (it's like Lizzy's, only they really do have cows). the weather was really nice. it rained this morning so it was semi-foggy, but the air was really warm, heavy, and soothing. on the way back, i stopped at this clearing where i could see the sun trying to set behind all the clouds. it wanted to be so pretty but too many clouds were in the way. it's like how i'm feeling. i stood there for a while and promised i'm going to keep trying, just like the sun.
every day has its clouds. but it'll clear up.
it always does.
i love the ending (although, i kind of wish they were more subtle about it) and just the psychology in the middle of the movie...like why fight club is started, and taking it too far, and just ahhhhhh so good.
i haven't fought (more like wrestled) with anyone in a very long time. however, whenever someone makes fun of me i tend to reply with "don't make me kick your ass" or some other violent response. last night, xander finally agreed to fight me and holy shit. he beat me everytime haha. but i also fought with sam, gerald, and colleen. wonderful way to get aggression out. i did win a couple! we were up until 3:20 in the C4 lounge just fighting and being violent and insane.
i am now sore, tired, injured, and loving every minute of it.
i've been really "stuck" for the past month or so. i don't really know why this is happening now. i was thinking a lot about it earlier today during work (all [two] of the kids were sleeping and i had nothing to do for an hour and a half). i decided i need to figure out who i am again. i already went through this stage, but of course, i've changed since then. but i don't mind because i'm more than ready to make this feeling go away.
after work, i went for a bike ride to Flayvors (it's like Lizzy's, only they really do have cows). the weather was really nice. it rained this morning so it was semi-foggy, but the air was really warm, heavy, and soothing. on the way back, i stopped at this clearing where i could see the sun trying to set behind all the clouds. it wanted to be so pretty but too many clouds were in the way. it's like how i'm feeling. i stood there for a while and promised i'm going to keep trying, just like the sun.
every day has its clouds. but it'll clear up.
it always does.