Deep thoughts
A while ago I used to be lot more naive, and also happier, now i found that from time to time I worry too much about things and find my mind peaceless. I worry about money a lot more, about my job and well-being and surroundings. This can be caused by the changes I had in my life in the past years. I’ve been abused by ex-bosses at work and by coworkers as well, so now I keep my distances and take my cautions in advance. Is this ok? I don’t know, but I am glad that out of work I can let my happy little child out. …wait I said little child? Hmm, that means something, but not sure what.
Work
What I can see is that I am presently troubled and will like things to change, like my job, I am not sure if I like it. There are a couple of things that I hate, and some that I can live with, also good ones of course. I know that I don't like my coworkers attitude, the guys I deal with can be pretty cocky and people on the office are so unprofessional. The kind like When the Boss leaves, they stop working, make jokes and leave early. It may be ok to do it form time to time, but these people do it all the time. I don't fit with that pattern, i am not like that.
Home
Jeff asked me if I still want to live with Kate or not; I told him that it is the same to me, of course I want my apartment with him, decorate it and made it our own space, but in the other side I said that she and I had to work our attitude towards each other. I might feel bad leaving her alone, she needs people around and she will be depressed on her own, she may move back to france or some other place, but she can be so bad-tempered sometimes that she gets to my nerves, specially when she has to stand out and pushes me and other people away (in a figurative manner).
Well the thing is that I said yes to stay the three of us, but I have strong feelings about our own space and a quiet life, I think this might have to wait. We also will like to buy a house, this means that if we share rent for another year we will be able to save money (I will pay my debts as well)
So this all leads my little head to spin sometimes, even if I live day by day, and try not to care about the future or past. Jeff's friends have been seeing a Massotherapeute who also does reflexology and psychotherapy, they all liked it and are looking forward to be in peace with themselves. I am tempted to go, but not sure why I might go for.
Health
In the past few months I've been caught myself sleeping with my head on my head, and often wake up in this position. Jeff also told me that I sleep-talk, or kinda; he says that I bilnk my eyes and that I act bothered and try to say something, but just a grumpy babble comes out. I am going to tell my doc about this, it can be Neuro related.
Besides that Jeff is starting his new job going to a training to Cleveland for 15 days, then start traveling, i am going to miss him and may work harder, to avoid being alone and to catch up with clients and projects. I am planning to go to the gym and exercise more. This can be done easily, I love commiting to a workout routine.
That is it for now, gotta go back to work.
Work
What I can see is that I am presently troubled and will like things to change, like my job, I am not sure if I like it. There are a couple of things that I hate, and some that I can live with, also good ones of course. I know that I don't like my coworkers attitude, the guys I deal with can be pretty cocky and people on the office are so unprofessional. The kind like When the Boss leaves, they stop working, make jokes and leave early. It may be ok to do it form time to time, but these people do it all the time. I don't fit with that pattern, i am not like that.
Home
Jeff asked me if I still want to live with Kate or not; I told him that it is the same to me, of course I want my apartment with him, decorate it and made it our own space, but in the other side I said that she and I had to work our attitude towards each other. I might feel bad leaving her alone, she needs people around and she will be depressed on her own, she may move back to france or some other place, but she can be so bad-tempered sometimes that she gets to my nerves, specially when she has to stand out and pushes me and other people away (in a figurative manner).
Well the thing is that I said yes to stay the three of us, but I have strong feelings about our own space and a quiet life, I think this might have to wait. We also will like to buy a house, this means that if we share rent for another year we will be able to save money (I will pay my debts as well)
So this all leads my little head to spin sometimes, even if I live day by day, and try not to care about the future or past. Jeff's friends have been seeing a Massotherapeute who also does reflexology and psychotherapy, they all liked it and are looking forward to be in peace with themselves. I am tempted to go, but not sure why I might go for.
Health
In the past few months I've been caught myself sleeping with my head on my head, and often wake up in this position. Jeff also told me that I sleep-talk, or kinda; he says that I bilnk my eyes and that I act bothered and try to say something, but just a grumpy babble comes out. I am going to tell my doc about this, it can be Neuro related.
Besides that Jeff is starting his new job going to a training to Cleveland for 15 days, then start traveling, i am going to miss him and may work harder, to avoid being alone and to catch up with clients and projects. I am planning to go to the gym and exercise more. This can be done easily, I love commiting to a workout routine.
That is it for now, gotta go back to work.