Freakin' stressing day !
What a freakin' stressing day ! It started with an appointment that I had scheduled for today. Jeff and Kate started pushing me to do something that has to be done, something that it is a number one priority for them, but not for me. Anyway I got an appointment in written, and it was all wrong. So I had to call them and they gave me a new one, then Jeff wasn't to happy about it, but I am not a child and I let him know how I see all this. Later I had to talk about it all to Kate too.
Then I checked my bank account to found that I had no money, that remind me that I have to cancel my gym membership for a couple of months while I work out at home. The guy that answered was an asshole and told me that I can't put it on hold, even if the manager told me that I can do it whenever I want. So we had an argument about it and at the end I told him that their service sucks big time, he said "I don't understand what you said". I repeated it. he then said the same thing, it is then that I told him loud and clear : "Your service sucks big time !" finishing the conversation.
I called Rainer to tell him that I had to cancel our lunch meeting this week. He got pissed off (even if he has done the same before) then he said he understand it, but then asked me how much money I did this year and started to pressure me again to get more contracts and asked me why I don't do more money if I am working on my own. "Because I suck at sales, I hate it" I told him "I am not a Marketing guy like you" We talked about this in the past, he knows that I am more of an artist; but thinks that I can do better and be a good salesman, and when he presuures me he can be a real pain in the ass, I just know that I am too honest to talk shit in order to sale anything.
It is like Dommerc, he told me the other day that I have to kiss everybody's ass to make them happy, so everybody will like me, and then I will be able to sell anything I will offer. But I am not ok with all this and I bet everyone will see that I am acting as a jerk (like some people think about him) I won't be able to lie or be Mr. nice guy just to sell (the type that do a thumbs up and gives a toothpaste ad smile, with an eye wink). That is not me.
Actually business is not that bad, just that I only get individual clients, and can't seem to bring corporations in. The problem here is that individuals don't have much money, just come once and you don't know when you'll see them again. I have a couple of clients that come back from time to time, but they are small clients and we can not plan projects ahead. So this is pretty unstable. I have though about this a lot and I am now feed up with it. That's part of the reason why I am starting at the new company as an employee. I will keep giving myh services to other clients in the spare time tough.
I also recieved a couple of bills that I need to pay asap. More stress ! So I make a list of the bills to pay and money to recieve, organising it by priority (fortunetelly it goes kif-kif). Then I am going to make a big change this wednesday, starting in this company as their graphic artist. I have to finish other projects that are on the way, but not finished and I am waiting for 3 clients to continue the projects and also be able to bill them (money on stand by)
Only God know how this day will end! My head is about to explode !
Then I checked my bank account to found that I had no money, that remind me that I have to cancel my gym membership for a couple of months while I work out at home. The guy that answered was an asshole and told me that I can't put it on hold, even if the manager told me that I can do it whenever I want. So we had an argument about it and at the end I told him that their service sucks big time, he said "I don't understand what you said". I repeated it. he then said the same thing, it is then that I told him loud and clear : "Your service sucks big time !" finishing the conversation.
I called Rainer to tell him that I had to cancel our lunch meeting this week. He got pissed off (even if he has done the same before) then he said he understand it, but then asked me how much money I did this year and started to pressure me again to get more contracts and asked me why I don't do more money if I am working on my own. "Because I suck at sales, I hate it" I told him "I am not a Marketing guy like you" We talked about this in the past, he knows that I am more of an artist; but thinks that I can do better and be a good salesman, and when he presuures me he can be a real pain in the ass, I just know that I am too honest to talk shit in order to sale anything.
It is like Dommerc, he told me the other day that I have to kiss everybody's ass to make them happy, so everybody will like me, and then I will be able to sell anything I will offer. But I am not ok with all this and I bet everyone will see that I am acting as a jerk (like some people think about him) I won't be able to lie or be Mr. nice guy just to sell (the type that do a thumbs up and gives a toothpaste ad smile, with an eye wink). That is not me.
Actually business is not that bad, just that I only get individual clients, and can't seem to bring corporations in. The problem here is that individuals don't have much money, just come once and you don't know when you'll see them again. I have a couple of clients that come back from time to time, but they are small clients and we can not plan projects ahead. So this is pretty unstable. I have though about this a lot and I am now feed up with it. That's part of the reason why I am starting at the new company as an employee. I will keep giving myh services to other clients in the spare time tough.
I also recieved a couple of bills that I need to pay asap. More stress ! So I make a list of the bills to pay and money to recieve, organising it by priority (fortunetelly it goes kif-kif). Then I am going to make a big change this wednesday, starting in this company as their graphic artist. I have to finish other projects that are on the way, but not finished and I am waiting for 3 clients to continue the projects and also be able to bill them (money on stand by)
Only God know how this day will end! My head is about to explode !