Jaded
So for the first time in my life I think I am jaded.....
What do you do when someone you didnt think it was okay to love changes something in their life and out of nowhere it becomes okay to love that person. Part of me just wants to scream and yell and say "I love you, and I always have..." But should I? I think I got so used to the idea that this day would never come that I became immune to the situation, but no matter what I do, in my heart I know the feelings are still there. I feel like every day I become more and more liberated. Thats good thing though, because thats what I wanted to achieve when I started on this road years ago. I hate it that sometimes i dont have a fucking clue who I am.......
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance
Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance
And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more
So I blame this town, this job, these friends
The truth is it's myself
And I'm trying to understand myself
and pinpoint where i am
By the time I get things figured out
I've change the whole damn plan
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Talking shit about a pretty sunset
Blanketing opinions that i'll probably reget soon
I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it
My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself..... M mouse
What do you do when someone you didnt think it was okay to love changes something in their life and out of nowhere it becomes okay to love that person. Part of me just wants to scream and yell and say "I love you, and I always have..." But should I? I think I got so used to the idea that this day would never come that I became immune to the situation, but no matter what I do, in my heart I know the feelings are still there. I feel like every day I become more and more liberated. Thats good thing though, because thats what I wanted to achieve when I started on this road years ago. I hate it that sometimes i dont have a fucking clue who I am.......
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Looking kind of anxious in your cross armed stance
Like a bad tempered prom queen at a homecoming dance
And I claim I'm not excited with my life any more
So I blame this town, this job, these friends
The truth is it's myself
And I'm trying to understand myself
and pinpoint where i am
By the time I get things figured out
I've change the whole damn plan
Oh noose tied myself in, tied myself too tight
Talking shit about a pretty sunset
Blanketing opinions that i'll probably reget soon
I've changed my mind so much I cant even trust it
My mind changed me so much I cant even trust myself..... M mouse