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today i was filling out a parking application for clark, because i am commuting so i definitely need a spot to put my car. there are several options for parking; an inside overnight parking garage, an outside overnight parking lot, and various commuter spots for 7am - midnight. personally, i want to be able to have an overnight spot in case i want to sleep over in someone's dorm or if i am at a party or if i am studying. i don't want to have to always be leaving early, etc. etc.
understandably, overnight parking costs more. commuter parking is $40 a year. outside overnight is $220 a year. and inside overnight is $330 a year. there are also other smaller parking lots that are overnight for $110 a year. i honestly think the prices are pretty reasonable, considering we paid money for parking at SPM for only 8 hours a day. so i filled out all the forms and stuff (early mind you, because i'm not sure if as a commuter i am entitled to an overnight spot) and told my mom the prices. I said i would really like to have an overnight spot and she gave me this look like "are you serious"
i explained why i wanted one, and she was like well it's not due until august 7th. and i was like i'm just trying to be responsible so you don't have to bug me about filling stuff out. she said to me, "well it's not that it's whether or not we can afford it."
1. i'm not asking for thousands of dollars here. i am asking for even just 110. for a whole year of parking.
2. JUST LAST WEEK, my mom asked me if i wanted to go shopping. she said to me, "i just got a big commission check so we can go redo your room." all together, the supplies for redoing my room were over $100.
so where did the rest of that money go? not to my tuition, i'm sure, because that money was already sent it. i realize there are bills to pay etc etc, but my dad works too. so is it honestly that hard to spare $100 for parking? i am probably going to have to end up paying for the parking. but thats not even what bothers me. what bothers me is how unprepared my parents were for college.
this year i couldn't afford to live on campus. albeit at first i didn't want to, but i changed my mind, asked them, and they said we couldn't afford it. that's fine. i understand room and board is expensive.
also, i'm not getting a laptop. for me, thats kind of big. i even offered to pay half of the price. my dad literally did not respond to that offer. he just changed the subject.
my parents also told me that if i decided to go to clark, they would not help me pay for clothes, food, gas, anything. i said that was fine, because i would rather go to clark than to wpi.
so thats where all my graduation party money went: in a savings account to support me through the year. actually, thats what i had planned to do with the money. my parents may have sent that off to clark to pay for tuition without first asking me. so i may have no money next year, who knows. i am going to start working at target, but i won't be able to save up enough money in the last month of summer by any stretch of the imagination.
i just don't understand where money goes in my house. we buy a lot of things, we seem to spend a lot of money, if i want to go out my mom always asks if i need money and is ready to give me at least $20. we buy new things it seems all the time, my brother gets new guitars, new tvs, new videogames, new appliances, new new new. we even bought a new camper this year for like $14,000, money that could have gone towards clark.
i feel like my parents grossly underestimated the cost of college. were they expecting me to get a free ride somewhere? i got a lot of money from wpi, but i don't want to go there. and i feel like my parents are trying to punish me for turning down that oppurtunity. i really really love clark. i drove by the campus today and it looked so pretty and i wanted to be there so badly.
and they remind me all the time about how hard it was to pay for clark. my dad was like, yeah i have no retirement fund. and i honestly don't know how true that is, but what are they going to do about nevin? not let him take out loans either? they are giving me a huge guilt trip everytime clark is brought up. i just am so fed up. i don't understand how they weren't expecting to have to pay for something as simple as parking.