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so i probably had the worst moment ever last night. and i knew the answer already but for some reason something was just telling me to go up and ask curtis if we're friends. like i said, i already knew the answer. but i wasn't expecting it to hurt so much. he basically told me hes the happiest when i'm the farthest away. and that we can't be friends now.
it was like i stab at my heart, and i couldn't breathe for a second. and now i don't know what to do.
the reason why i want to be his friend again is because i miss talking to him and that i'm afraid its starting to get between colin and i.
seriously, how bad was it what i did? I CAN'T HELP THE WAT I FEEL. and if it were anyone else i know he'd act the same. but for some reason i feel like i did the worst thing on earth. i know i shouldn't have told curtis that i wasn't ready for a relationship yet and just plain out said that we cant be together in the beginning but i was afraid. i just feel so rotten right now. he's been messing with me and toying me around because he knows he can hurt me now.
well good job curtis, you've done it. you broke my heart this time.
it was like i stab at my heart, and i couldn't breathe for a second. and now i don't know what to do.
the reason why i want to be his friend again is because i miss talking to him and that i'm afraid its starting to get between colin and i.
seriously, how bad was it what i did? I CAN'T HELP THE WAT I FEEL. and if it were anyone else i know he'd act the same. but for some reason i feel like i did the worst thing on earth. i know i shouldn't have told curtis that i wasn't ready for a relationship yet and just plain out said that we cant be together in the beginning but i was afraid. i just feel so rotten right now. he's been messing with me and toying me around because he knows he can hurt me now.
well good job curtis, you've done it. you broke my heart this time.