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It's quiet.
Hikaru and Sen are gone to the States... It's curious how used I've gotten to them being around. Before that I was quite used to being alone almost all the time. Mamoru and Speedy miss them too.
I tried to do some work when I came home, but I couldn't with the place being so quiet. I started cleaning instead. The toilett. I think I'm gonna walk the dog now. And take the garbage out. And then I guess...takeout? Argh! I don't know what to do! There's no one to jump me. The dog doesn't count. Iguana doesn't either.
I hope things go well.
Sen's been trying, I know he was, but I don't know what will happen if he does go blind. The island helped it a little, but still... The last weeks were...dark. Well, suppose I wasn't a poster boyfriend either. I've been rarely home, when I was home, I was too tired...had my own problems going on...I feel like a jerk.
But I made a resolve. I will be a better support form now on. Sen needs me now and hell if I let him down. And if the operation doesn't succeed, first thing I'm doing is getting him a job. There.
And for now I'll be happy for the ray of hope. I didn't see him smile so brightly in a while. It felt so good I almost cried. I love him so much... I want him to be happy. For real, not only the brave smiles he puts up.
I thik I'll go and pray for a while, before I head off to America. Not my usual way of solving problems, but if there's someone up there who can help...now's the time to ask for it.
Hikaru and Sen are gone to the States... It's curious how used I've gotten to them being around. Before that I was quite used to being alone almost all the time. Mamoru and Speedy miss them too.
I tried to do some work when I came home, but I couldn't with the place being so quiet. I started cleaning instead. The toilett. I think I'm gonna walk the dog now. And take the garbage out. And then I guess...takeout? Argh! I don't know what to do! There's no one to jump me. The dog doesn't count. Iguana doesn't either.
I hope things go well.
Sen's been trying, I know he was, but I don't know what will happen if he does go blind. The island helped it a little, but still... The last weeks were...dark. Well, suppose I wasn't a poster boyfriend either. I've been rarely home, when I was home, I was too tired...had my own problems going on...I feel like a jerk.
But I made a resolve. I will be a better support form now on. Sen needs me now and hell if I let him down. And if the operation doesn't succeed, first thing I'm doing is getting him a job. There.
And for now I'll be happy for the ray of hope. I didn't see him smile so brightly in a while. It felt so good I almost cried. I love him so much... I want him to be happy. For real, not only the brave smiles he puts up.
I thik I'll go and pray for a while, before I head off to America. Not my usual way of solving problems, but if there's someone up there who can help...now's the time to ask for it.