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[speedbumper]

howdy howdy howdy. don't worry this update won't have another totally AWESOME story in it, maybe next time. welp it's been an pretty average day for me today. I dunno just seems life gets really hard really fast these days eh? A lot of stuff has been pretty messed up in mylife lately but that's a part of it, sadly. As it gets harder you learn some interesting things a long the way though, some good, some bad but they are usually 80% of the time interesting. Today I learned something that I already knew yes yes I know that's "impossible" but it's true. I said something to my dad today that I just really grabbed a hold of. Me and my dad were out today and as were driving around I saw my old driver's ed teacher dropping someone off. So I said lets go back and run her off the road....yes yes I know it sounds mean but I was joking and if you knew her you would want to do the same. We kept going as I said we should do it more and more and I said it would be "awesome" followed by "it's the little things in life you treasure". That saying is so true. Even though things for me have been really trying and annoying it all faded away tonight. I was out again at worship practice then went shopping for some random things and to look for some gnomes (don't ask....well you can but it's up to you) On our way home the raceway was letting out and the fire works were going off so me and my brother pulled off to the side of the road and watched. Right there as we watched the fire works show while listening to RK everything seemed to fade away......it wasn't something huge that took my attention of things, it was something little. For those few moments life just seemed so, peaceful and, clear. Now the "little things" won't make the situation better but they give you some key moments of clarity that help you change your situations. *sigh* I don't know if this will make sense to anyone but myself but that's a risk I'm willing to take:-) With my moments of clarity I saw what I need to do, what "steps I need to take to change my life" so lets hope it all works out shall we?

Eh I'm getting bored with this thing here (what else is new?) so I'll leave you with that bunch of random and perhaps pointless thoughts I have typed up.

~Ha cha cha