The Pan Daemon Aeon decleration And qoutes from the wise Zack Wylde.
Ok on the agenda I am trying to join the toughman competition in little rock, Win or lose it will be fun. I have an attack plan for my loneliness, Work it out of my mind like I did back when I worked or worked out or drank all the time, a.k.a UCA. Yet in my follies I seem to have forgotten who I was. Just a nice guy with a bad attitude, I used to be nice but something snapped....majorly. I have gone about all things wrong in my life and it sucks. Quite possibly the people who might care about me I have hurt their feelings. Society was brutally honest to me my whole life and after 16 years (age 16)of society's crap, I changed for the worst. 20 years of anger has been caged inside of me. I always seem to blame my problems on others or think obtusely. To the people who think I am violent maybe I am. But peace never solved anything, look at WWII sanctions didn't stop the germans. That seems off subject but I assure you it isn't. I am gonna change my life I have to. Old, lonely, pissed off and fat is no way to die folks, if I don't change I can assure that when I die that will be how my heart died.
As of the coming fall semester I will reside in Conway and I will be attending UCA again. Now in my life is the only time I have dreamed of a college, that college is McPherson University in Mcpherson Kansas. I feel I will graduate with a degree from UCA if my dream is not obtainable which I do not believe it is. But that is why I call it a dream. I will start training in the next week for toughman, with the hopes that most other rednecks that join will not train. As for now I just want to try to hang around females more often so I can get comfortable talking to them. I was sober Saturday night for the first time in 7 months, I was clear, calm, and I held a conversation with a female for the first time since the one whose name I don't mention circa 99',
I have a long way to go I dunno why females scare me, but they do. I figure you gotta be friends with them before anything else it just seems that I "scare" people. So I shall turn down my sick wit and sense of humor.The females hate it and it is not who I want to be anymore, I liked it better when the old Daniel would cage his feelings up then explode.
Everyone that I went to high school with we should hang out soon if you guys read this if not then lost in a pc these words are.
Where I go and where I rise, I couldn't give a damn
Another shot, another beer, is all that I have planned
The cage is broke, the tank is full, it's where the violence rules
Drinkin' booze and raisin' rifles, hell straight through and through.
As of the coming fall semester I will reside in Conway and I will be attending UCA again. Now in my life is the only time I have dreamed of a college, that college is McPherson University in Mcpherson Kansas. I feel I will graduate with a degree from UCA if my dream is not obtainable which I do not believe it is. But that is why I call it a dream. I will start training in the next week for toughman, with the hopes that most other rednecks that join will not train. As for now I just want to try to hang around females more often so I can get comfortable talking to them. I was sober Saturday night for the first time in 7 months, I was clear, calm, and I held a conversation with a female for the first time since the one whose name I don't mention circa 99',
I have a long way to go I dunno why females scare me, but they do. I figure you gotta be friends with them before anything else it just seems that I "scare" people. So I shall turn down my sick wit and sense of humor.The females hate it and it is not who I want to be anymore, I liked it better when the old Daniel would cage his feelings up then explode.
Everyone that I went to high school with we should hang out soon if you guys read this if not then lost in a pc these words are.
Where I go and where I rise, I couldn't give a damn
Another shot, another beer, is all that I have planned
The cage is broke, the tank is full, it's where the violence rules
Drinkin' booze and raisin' rifles, hell straight through and through.