midnight contemplation
I have a tattoo of shooting star on my back for a reason. This star symbolizes how I feel about myself and who I hope to be. I want to be that split second of hope in your life, I want to pass and leave only the most beautiful of impressions. I want your brief moment with me to last a lifetime. I don’t want you to forget.
At one point in my life someone very dear to my heart said “Alison, you were born to help people. You have the strength, the heart and the passion. It is who you are.” And I really believed that but I thought maybe it was because I just wanted to believe that. I wanted to believe that this was my gift.
And that dream had not died, but without a doubt it was left on the back burner. I couldn’t handle the party scene because I felt like it wasn’t mine. I struggled, but couldn’t handle the veterinary work because I felt like I could do more.
And I have spent years devoting my time to a person I loved because I felt they needed me so they could move on in life and help them to live their dream.
Well tonight, I have never seen more clearly my own strength, and I have never understood better why I have struggled and how I have struggled.
Tonight I give myself credit for trying different paths and moving on. For loving hard and giving hope. For smiling when I needed to and laughing when I wanted to. For crying when it was my time to hurt and for screaming when I needed to be heard. I give myself credit for loving the ones who hurt me and for getting up when I fell down.
Tonight I know where I want to go in life. I know what I need to do and I don’t regret a decision I have ever made. I never have and I never will.
Tonight I thank everyone who I have shared even the briefest of moments with.
Thank you Michelle, for being so compassionate.
Thank you John, for being my family.
Thank you Dad, for giving me my kindness.
Thank you Mom, for giving me the space I needed to grow.
Thank you Ian, for supporting me no matter how far apart, and for truly caring.
Thank you James, for having faith in me and for being my shooting star.
Thank you Brian, for all of the growth,letting me love you and for hurting me so deeply. (Sincerely)
Thank you Mr. Jewett, for knowing me better than I knew myself.
Thank you Grandma, for being so strong for me.
Thank you Jack, for the laughter and hugs.
Thank you Carolyne, for being a role model (we all need one of those).
Sincerely all of you. The bands I’ve seen, the people who have laughed at me, and with me. The people who have cried on me and the people who I have cried on.
Thanks for all of the hugs.
And I thank myself for wiping my tears away with the people who I love.
Forever and Always.
∞ Al
At one point in my life someone very dear to my heart said “Alison, you were born to help people. You have the strength, the heart and the passion. It is who you are.” And I really believed that but I thought maybe it was because I just wanted to believe that. I wanted to believe that this was my gift.
And that dream had not died, but without a doubt it was left on the back burner. I couldn’t handle the party scene because I felt like it wasn’t mine. I struggled, but couldn’t handle the veterinary work because I felt like I could do more.
And I have spent years devoting my time to a person I loved because I felt they needed me so they could move on in life and help them to live their dream.
Well tonight, I have never seen more clearly my own strength, and I have never understood better why I have struggled and how I have struggled.
Tonight I give myself credit for trying different paths and moving on. For loving hard and giving hope. For smiling when I needed to and laughing when I wanted to. For crying when it was my time to hurt and for screaming when I needed to be heard. I give myself credit for loving the ones who hurt me and for getting up when I fell down.
Tonight I know where I want to go in life. I know what I need to do and I don’t regret a decision I have ever made. I never have and I never will.
Tonight I thank everyone who I have shared even the briefest of moments with.
Thank you Michelle, for being so compassionate.
Thank you John, for being my family.
Thank you Dad, for giving me my kindness.
Thank you Mom, for giving me the space I needed to grow.
Thank you Ian, for supporting me no matter how far apart, and for truly caring.
Thank you James, for having faith in me and for being my shooting star.
Thank you Brian, for all of the growth,letting me love you and for hurting me so deeply. (Sincerely)
Thank you Mr. Jewett, for knowing me better than I knew myself.
Thank you Grandma, for being so strong for me.
Thank you Jack, for the laughter and hugs.
Thank you Carolyne, for being a role model (we all need one of those).
Sincerely all of you. The bands I’ve seen, the people who have laughed at me, and with me. The people who have cried on me and the people who I have cried on.
Thanks for all of the hugs.
And I thank myself for wiping my tears away with the people who I love.
Forever and Always.
∞ Al